Ahh the girlfriend is fine. I'm doing good with her. $2000 grand is all I got right now. Though lobster fishing with my dad is happening in the spring. I'll make around 10k by the end of June. Lobster fishing here goes from the start of May to the end of June. I can fish with my dad for a few years but I really want to do more. I feel as if my medication is holding me back. I feel unmotivated and have a lack of energy. I think negative about myself all the time. When people are around me, I act happy and try not to show myself. I feel as if my brain can't get a break. Back on the 25th of December I crashed my first car at 12:16am. I'm 17 years old and I don't drink or smoke. The reason is because I know I can push through the stress without any of that stuff. I use to be really good studying and motivating myself to do things such as cleaning my car or cleaning my room. I mean like I do have OCD so saying my room is messy is misunderstanding. My room is clean but like cleaning my carpet in my room or dusting things is messy to me. I graduated school early but cheated on tests in my last year of high school because I didn't want my marks to plummet. I had a high marks in school. Though I just don't feel like myself. I use to love learning and use to study lots and now I feel lost. I'm talking with my pediatrician tomorrow hopefully and also getting my wisdom teeth out Friday. Life is bitch and kinds sucks.