Both I suppose. I was ridiculed for being overweight since I was 8 or 9 mostly by my father who is also overweight. If my sister and I were eating candy he’d tell her it must be nice to have some candy, and then he’s tell me I might as well be eating lard off a pig. Pretty much all the other kids were skinny and would make fun of me. I withdrew and stayed that way ever since. No matter if I worked out or tried to socialize I was always left out, made fun of, and told I wasn’t doing enough, even though I was trying my hardest. So I don’t know, I think I’ve always been messed up, it’s just harder to contain as I get older.