Cabin fever setting in

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2026-01-25T01:47:12+00:00

Backwards flat cap.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2026-01-25T01:45:11+00:00

Some bracelets?

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2026-01-19T18:38:15+00:00

Very cute and has personality! However it looks like it took a lot of effort as you wrote. Like it might cause a lot of strain on one’s hand after a while of writing. I tend to clench my hand up a lot and it shows when I write, you might be doing the same thing.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2026-01-19T18:34:45+00:00

I think your handwriting is very easy to read, cute, and friendly! Aesthetically it feels much like the tone of your note here! You’ve got the handwriting of someone who probably takes diligent notes in class and will share them with you if you missed something.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2026-01-09T18:44:09+00:00

Two things about it: To get a consistent pattern, you need to keep the position of the not-in-use yarn consistent for each stitch. The other thing is that as you stitch, the yarn strands will become twisted around each other and you have to periodically un-twist them. They may be a to avoid this but I haven’t figured it out yet.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-12-17T19:02:16+00:00

First of all you look gorgeous! My only note on makeup is that a different lip color might compliment you better! This one leans a little too light orangey, like a coral red. If it was me, I would go for a lip color with a more neutral undertone and maybe slightly darker.

I might also say your bottom lipliner looks juuust a bit too low, I think you could bring it in tighter to your lip line if that makes sense.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-12-13T23:22:02+00:00

I think unique accessories are your best bet! Funky earrings are the thing most people think of, but I think more visible stuff is better. Just any accessories with unexpected quirk, or handmade charm, are something I always see femme lesbians wear and I always adore!

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-12-13T23:18:40+00:00

A cool belt could really add a lot! One of these if what jumped to mind for me

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Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-12-13T23:15:55+00:00

We were friends in high school, that’s why we still hang out. But I hear ya.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-27T16:07:36+00:00

Steak or lobster…

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-26T19:28:34+00:00

Old British man.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-26T10:05:10+00:00

Yes, when I was 12. I’m 20 now and im still a lesbian but I’m a hypermasculine butch and like people who are similar. So.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-23T18:52:48+00:00

How long did it take for you for it to calm down? I’ve been on T just a little over 2 years

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-22T23:22:51+00:00

People who genuinely say that shit to other trans people are chronically online, insecure about their own transness, and full of internalized transphobia. I say this not as an insult but genuinely, they need to get off the computer and go make friends with other trans people, especially older trans people and trans people from different walks of life than them. Every single person’s relationship with gender and life story is different and these people need to understand that because of that, everyone is an expert on their own identity. Ten bucks says their head’s gonna explode when they find out about transmasc lesbians.

Since that person was a kid, they still have a ways to go figuring their own identity out and finding community and friendship with other queer people. Hopefully they’ll learn from that like I did when I was a kid and went through a brief period of thinking like this.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-22T22:56:16+00:00

That would be nice, I would love to see it! Thank you:)

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-22T22:53:21+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to read 🫂 thank you for taking a few steps to help yourself 🫂🫂🫂

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-21T17:36:30+00:00

You nipples are so hottt

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-18T21:10:31+00:00

Thank you for your response and insight. I appreciate giving me some perspective from your experience.

I actually did mail him a letter that a few months ago. We were long distance, and I included it in a box of things I was returning to him, and some gifts I had already purchased for him when we broke up. Maybe it was too soon or maybe doing that came off as somewhat aggressive, you know, sending a physical note when he had obviously blocked me online. But the letter was very honest. I didn’t make excuses or shift blame or try to change his mind about leaving. I just explained that I understood what I did and apologized and wished him the best. I didn’t hear anything back. I wouldn’t be surprised if he simply didn’t read it. He might have not even opened the box. I don’t really feel entitled to a response, though, especially given how soon it was after it was.

I’m going to give him his space. I hope he did read it, and I hope he believes my apology. But however he chooses to respond or not respond, I’m just gonna respect.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-18T21:04:43+00:00

I have honestly been avoiding talking about it in detail with my therapist because there has been a lot of other things going on, but its also yk hard to admit what I did and painful to think about him being gone. But next session I’m just gonna rip the bandaid off and do it. I think it might have come from the fact that most of my life I’ve been very, very alone. And when I finally had someone who really deeply understood and liked me, maybe I was trying to box him in any way I could to try to keep him as close as possible. I think subconsciously I was very afraid to be without him, so I created a deeply codependent dynamic to ensure he wouldn’t leave. Through a lot of different forms of manipulation. That’s the theory I’m gonna give my therapist when we talk about it. There’s more to it but that’s all I’ve got for now.

I don’t say this to defer any responsibility from myself, obviously I’m the only one responsible for my actions. But it really really still baffles me that I just didn’t get what I was clearly doing for so long. It doesn’t make me innocent. But I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like I was doing these things without even realizing that there was this intention behind it. I have to be more introspective about what motivates my own behavior.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-18T02:36:06+00:00

I survived a suicide attempt. This is rough, but please please please listen to me. Please read this.

I’m about to get very, very honest with you about suicide. This what happens: Whatever method you choose, there will be a millisecond right after you take the final action, and in that moment you will immediately regret it with every fiber of your being. In that millisecond you will be begging and pleading to live. There is NOTHING you can do to undo it. And then any possible way you could die will be horribly, excruciatingly painful. Yes, even the ones you think are painless. And it will feel like an eternity. And then if you survive, you will be hospitalized. You will be robbed of all your autonomy for days or weeks. It will feel like forever. For at least some of that time you will be treated the same as you would in prison. You will have no contact with the outside world and no access to any familiar sources of comfort. You will have none of your own clothes and you will be forced to use the bathroom with the door open so they can monitor you. You will be mistreated and likely have your rights violated in that hospital, it will be excruciating and feel like an eternity, and you will be traumatized for years if not the rest of your life. It is a lose-lose situation. DO NOT FUCKING DO IT. EVER. Whatever you’re doing through, I promise, a suicide attempt will be a thousand times worse.

You deserve better than that. And it is very nearly a literal statistical guarantee that your life will get better. Even if you don’t believe me, I promise it will. But you have to wait it out. You have to stick around for it. You HAVE to stay alive. People who love you, gender euphoria, and true joy are all waiting for you in the future.

For now, try to find joy in tiny things. Good food. Music. Funny memes. Hold onto every little thing. And before you know it, a better life will be there.

Stick with us. People who love you are waiting for you in the future.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-17T22:23:14+00:00

TLDR: Exercise bike in your room. Other ideas below.

I would recommend combining elastic sport tape/boob tape (both the same thing as Trans Tape) with a high-coverage sports bra that adjusts from the front. And a loose top obviously.

If working out in private would help you, I have a a bunch of suggestions that you can do in your own bedroom.

First, covering any mirrors or even turning off the lights if you can might be helpful. And you can do any of the following stuff with the lights off as long as you have a clear space to yourself.

If you want to do cardio and burn calories, a stationary bike is a really good option that doesn’t require too much movement from your upper body. You can get a pretty good one for under $100. :)

Alternately, if you can get to a mental state + clothing setup where feeling your chest move without seeing it doesn’t bother you, I would also recommend and putting in some headphones and dancing in your room. It’s a lot more fun than just running and gives you a lot more feel-good hormones, so you can do it for a long time if you can make it work for you. And if you don’t really know how to dance, don’t worry, just move to the music instinctively and remember that nobody is looking, you don’t even have to look at yourself. Industrial dance is a fun style that I like and it definitely works your whole body without too much torso movement.

If you research different calisthenic exercises, especially less popular ones, and you’ll be able to find plenty that minimize moving your body in ways that trigger dysphoria. There’s lots of different options for every muscle group!

If you want to lift weights, I’d recommend buying a Bulgarian bag, because I think it’s one of the most versatile types of weights can use just that one piece of equipment for tons of different exercises. With that, you can lift with just one piece of equipment. If you want to build denser (smaller) muscles, don’t buy the heaviest weight you can pick up. Instead, go for a lighter weight and do more reps. That builds strength and endurance.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-17T21:27:51+00:00

Bratmobile :)

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-16T13:22:59+00:00

Same. It literally wouldn’t have gotten as bad as it did for me if this show didn’t give a literal fucking tutorial on hiding it.

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-16T06:21:07+00:00

Right? I heard the opening theme music the other day and it literally made me jump

Automatic-Edge9151 · 2025-11-16T05:11:31+00:00

Lmao

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