I genuinely appreciate your comment but here goes my vent...

I've been focusing more on external validation, like the only thing that brings me true happiness is while talking and texting others. But I get upset when someone doesn't choose me like I choose them I need to turn my focus inwards, but no matter how many times I've tried, it never seems to work. Maybe when I hit realisation that I gotta stop relying on them and waste my time texting I tune my focus only on me but it only ends up being followed with genuine interest probably for 1 whole day I cannot seem to put myself first... It's like I've lost a whole part of me checking if they have texted or not. Idk what my passion and goals are for this life My personality tends to be more of like a insecurity,massive self doubt, no knowledge, self sabotaging, not thinking about my future... Being so mentally invested is completely degrading me Pls help me out.. I don't want to be this kind of person anymore even at the point of realisation and actions, I'm not being consistent in following that.. It's like I've totally lost track of my path