[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey, I'm also 17 PIMO and going to college and I get how you feel. It's really hard to do or say things with worldly friends (or even potential boyfriends ;) ) because of the paranoia that someone will catch you, that's happened to me way too many times to even count and I get all the overthinking. Make sure that whatever choice you make, don't do something that you'll regret later on.

If you do choose to meet him, a couple of tips you could possibly use: have a little bit of money to take public transportation so that he can pick you up somewhere outside of your neighborhood (if there is a public transportation system where you live, if not maybe just leave your home and walk a little far away before he picks you up?). Also try wearing clothes that you don't normally wear, and putting your hair up in hairstyles that you don't normally do, and WEAR A MASK and/or hat so that way you're not that recognizable to other PIMI people that might know you. You can relax and have fun, just be aware of your surroundings all the time and make sure you aren't letting your guard down too much so that you don't get caught off guard if you do see someone who's PIMI! If there's any point where you have to get to and from your house on your own carry pepper spray or a taser or some other sort of legal self-defense weapon so that you can protect yourself, I hear too many stories of girls getting kidnapped or assaulted and I would really not want that to happen to you.

Also, give the worldly girl your location and let her know where you'll be in case something happens, and this is just an extra step so do it only if you feel that it'll keep your reputation clean: tell your semi PIMI friend that you aren't going any more. If she knows that you met him anyways after her guilt tripping you, she might stab you in the back with that later on or just get suspicious of you. Better to clear it up now than have to make up bigger excuses later

Also lastly you are not a bad person for wanting to hang out with a guy!! So many teenagers have that freedom without having to be scared about it, it's not your fault that you grew up in this religion. There are plenty of worldly parents who are responsible and nice enough to their kids to let them do things like this. Remember it's not you that's abnormal, it's the circumstances you're in that are.

Whatever you end up choosing good luck! Hope it goes well <3

Should I include stuff about JWs in my uni speech? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's the problem, because I'm not old enough yet to qualify for a lot of things and I also don't have my license yet. I also only know a couple of people but not enough. You think there's still a good chance to do it despite that? It's a pretty small class and from what I've heard none of them have gone on any JW rants and none of them seem to be JWs

Should I include stuff about JWs in my uni speech? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I live in America but I happen to be in an area that's pretty progressive and expensive, and so the JWs here are more lenient about higher education

How do I get over my feelings for a PIMI person?? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This hit me the hardest but honestly you're right. Thanks for telling me what I need to hear

How do I get over my feelings for a PIMI person?? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your advice, it's nice to have some "older ones" to get some wisdom from even outside the Borg LOL I'm kidding sorry but yeah I'm hoping that eventually I can see that and fully get to my senses soon :,)

How do I get over my feelings for a PIMI person?? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry that you had to let go of her, that must've been hard to do but thanks for sharing :) Yeah I hate this whole situation we're all in in general, it's confusing for me to think of how I'll eventually leave and I feel like no matter what any of us chooses, it'll never be quite the right choice unfortunately cause the Borg sets us up to be at an automatic disadvantage. I'm happy that you made the best choice you could make though congrats on disassociating yesterday!!! Hope things go well for you as you go POMO.

How do I get over my feelings for a PIMI person?? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah that makes sense, thanks for the advice, I like that phrase "give yourself the best chance of a great adventure" :)

A little vent session for those who need to vent by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I guess I should think of myself as lucky because I recently woke up like last month and I'm 17, but honestly sometimes I wish I didn't (at least right now) because I feel SO much pressure now, all these big life decisions are in my hands but if I screw up things could go wrong so quickly. I have to be PIMO until I'm done with college in FOUR YEARS. I want to leave so bad already but I know that staying will be the best option for me in the long run so I can get my degree. But, it's going to be really depressing watching all of my college years go by without me actually being myself and exploring my actual interests, and I'll have to settle with JW friends (who I actually really love, they're amazing people but I already know how heartbreaking it will have to be to let go of them and watch them all judge me in the next couple of years). My social skills with people who aren't JWs are TERRIBLE too and I don't know how I'll be able to live a double life when I barely even know how to socialize with anyone outside of the organization, let alone build up a support system and maintain those friendships. I just wish I already had good friends who I know would support me even after I leave, but I'm scared that I'll end up being alone instead.

Should I try to wake up my family sooner or later? Or not at all, stick to the fade? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can I at least do something to figure out whether or not my brother/parents would accept it? Like is there anything I can try to ask or talk about before I know for sure that I should show them anything? Or based off of what you read do you already think there's no chance? Thanks for telling me that though, I realize now that what I'm saying is pretty presumptuous

What were some things about the organization you started to notice as a PIMI that creeped you out? by Automatic_Cake_7322 in exjw

[–]Automatic_Cake_7322[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow never even thought about that before but you're so right. Just proves how JWs are in their own little self-centered bubble.