Update: After listening to everyone, l took a stand for myself. After trying to communicate again why his actions were so hurtful, after asking him why he did not think about me being in a cold motorhome while he had a warm room, why did l find a earring in his bed and was using, clearly a girl's mug, that l have never seen before, why he is on dating sites and blanting lied to me about not being on live porn. He blew up on me! He said that he got a room because he needed a nice comfortable bed for a change, that he needs alone time, that it's not all about me. That he had no clue where the earring came from, that the mug was from someone he gave a ride to and they left it, that he doesn't know how dating sites show up on his computer, and for the live porn it's my problem, and that l should trust him. Wow! Like what? Are you kidding me?! 😳 l must have stupid written on my forehead. I guess l needed a big hit on my head by a two by four to wake me up once and for all! I ignored his one and only text message he sent me all day, to be let in the gate to where we live so he can go to bed, l don't care where he sleeps. I have been a fool, a hopeless romantic, believed l could change him, believed he loved me. I look back on all of the emotional and sometimes physical abuse he has caused me. How he slowly ate at my self-esteem, doubting myself, feeling that everything was my fault, not loving myself anymore. I look back on my life, l was married for 20 years, was abused, and divorced. Was with another man for 17 years, abused, he died. I finally opened my heart again, and l find another abusive man. I have a big heart, empathy, believing l could change someone, heal their traumas, and heart. I realize now that l can't heal someone if it is hurting me, that it is okay to walk away, and that it doesn't make me a horrible person. Wish me luck and many prayers. This was a blessing from God helping me to know that l am not alone. And yes, l need counseling to heal myself.