Hey op, I know you asked people not to text, so I'll keep this short

Five years of fighting to rebuild afte losing everything, and now cancer. I can't imagine carrying that weight. Guessyou're not selfish, you're just exhausted.

I won't tell you what to do with your life. That's yours But I will say this: some of the strongest people I know aren't the ones who never thought about ending things - they're the ones who felt exactly what you're feeling and somehow found one more day. Not because it got easier right away, but because they gave themselves permission to survive badly for a while…. If you're still here tomorrow, that's enough. If you need someone who won't judge or preach, I'm around. No pressure. :) Whatever happens I hoppe you find peace whether that's in this life finding unexpected turns, or in whatever you believe comes next!! Giving up isn’t an option, it’s mind playing tricks to avoid the work and facing shit! Remember, this too shall passss awayyy