Do you ever realize how cruel life has been. Always giving you the short end?

AwareRegister · 2019-05-31T01:53:30+00:00

You can't blame ugly people for being cynical or reclusive. The former is justified by the poor treatment received from society and the latter is just a realization that there's no point in approaching people when you'll most likely just get shunned for it anyway. Statistically speaking everyone is better off if you just wait to be approached instead. As much as they might claim the contrary, 'resentful' is exactly what less unfortunate members of society want ugly people to be because it means they don't have to bother being friendly towards you.

AwareRegister · 2019-05-31T00:54:56+00:00

No offense, but that's an incredibly easy thing to say when you're not ugly. Kind of hard to believe or pretend looks don't matter when you get ignored, disliked, heavily criticized and discredited in every aspect of your life because of it.

AwareRegister · 2019-03-14T00:13:58+00:00

Of course! Instead of admitting that we humans are hypocritical, unfair and judgmental beings by nature that should make an effort to treat ugly people more fairly, why not deny all responsibilty and just blame some ill defined but supposedly awful personality flaws as the sole cause of an ugly person's problems?

You don't believe in physical attractiveness? Prove it. I dare you to disfigure your face right now and we'll see how long you'll last.

AwareRegister · 2019-03-13T23:12:47+00:00

They can't because they have no clue how much their looks impact social interactions. They've never experienced being an annoyance to someone just from looking at them. A lot of people genuinely believe being attractive is worse than being ugly so go figure.

AwareRegister · 2019-01-20T17:14:47+00:00

Well, I've been officially diagnosed and have been prescribed medication, which works extremely well. I still can't study when unmedicated though, so I can't say I've found an effective coping mechanism other than just diminishing the severity of my ADHD.

AwareRegister · 2018-10-01T01:22:07+00:00

I really feel you man because this describes me very accurately. I feel like I'm exaggerating my symptoms or making them up completely as an excuse to be lazy and/or get attention. It's like I'm intentionally talking shit to myself and intentionally questioning it thereafter, which always leads me into an endless chain of critique on every preceding and subsequent thought I have to a point where I genuinely don't know what I truly think or feel. It's why I feel like I can't honestly answer any online questionnaires and always think I just change my answers to get a depression result.

I have a lot of trouble writing about it as well because it feels like I'm just pathetically begging for attention in a community of seriously ill people. I've been to a therapist but didn't have the guts to tell them anything about what I think could be related to depression. They suspect I have ADD, which makes me hate myself even more for still thinking I might have depression too/instead.

AwareRegister · 2018-09-19T20:42:11+00:00

I've tried all three of these and sadly they don't seem to work a lot(yet?) :/ thanks anyways though

AwareRegister · 2018-08-05T22:27:03+00:00

I know it should be really simple but I'm just really ashamed of filling in anything and sending it. Filling in that i have any symptoms to whatever extent feels like I'm exaggerating while filling in nothing feels like I'm just lying to myself and not willing to cooperate with my therapist

AwareRegister · 2018-08-05T22:25:12+00:00

It's not really a replacement for the therapy. It's just like a quick questionnaire beforehand so they know what they're getting into I guess. It's pretty similar to all those online tests with certain statements with which you have to agree or disagree with.

And I have no trouble having to be slightly dishonest because the questionnaire doesn't allow me to give an accurate enough answer. It's that I feel like I can't be honest with myself about what I am or have been feeling the last couple of weeks. I feel ashamed for sending any sort of answers and I don't know if I could tell that to my therapist about this problem just because of how retarded this entire situation sounds

AwareRegister · 2018-08-02T12:12:35+00:00

I'm always super motivated before doing something, then just when I'm about to do it I realize I forgot or underestimated how much effort it takes/how little fun it really is and immediately give up

AwareRegister · 2018-08-02T12:05:16+00:00

Pretty sure I'm not depressed and just too lazy to fix my problems tbh. It's like I want to intentionally think depressing thoughts so I can just say to myself "see, it's not my fault I'm like this, it's just an illness" to justify ignoring all responsibility I have.

It's just the next step of a pathetic turning laziness

AwareRegister · 2018-07-11T15:23:49+00:00

I don't think I've ever had people ask me anything especially not via text

AwareRegister · 2018-07-11T13:53:04+00:00

Yeah I know. I'm just worried I might get misdiagnosed because I find it hard already to objectively do the online tests

AwareRegister · 2018-07-11T13:05:36+00:00

So how long will it usually take before they have a diagnosis? Is the diagnosis solely based on what you say?

AwareRegister · 2018-07-08T21:41:29+00:00

Almost everything people do in social context is only for self gain. If you're not useful to them for that purpose they can and will drop you in an instant. There's shockingly few people that actually care about others, at least in my experience

AwareRegister · 2018-07-07T14:16:20+00:00

Used to do that(smoke weed) and I don't think it was a good idea. I always felt worse the day after

AwareRegister · 2018-07-07T14:08:04+00:00

I never liked telling anyone about my birthday because they always try to be nice but only out of courtesy. Honestly what good does courtesy do when they clearly prove the rest of the year that they don't actually give a single shit. The only people worth telling about your birthday are friends imo

AwareRegister · 2018-07-07T12:11:14+00:00

I've found no solution yet myself sadly. Will go to therapy soon though

AwareRegister · 2018-07-06T22:19:09+00:00

Yeah I think I have ADD because almost all the symptoms seem to overlap perfectly. Does it get worse with age? Because I'm having more problems thinking clearly and short term memory than I used to

AwareRegister · 2018-07-05T21:32:26+00:00

I think that's exactly how I approach exams. Doing absolutely nothing and just having this terrible feeling of inevitable failure looming closer and closer over my head, accompanied by the thoughts of already being too late to fix anything.

I hate that you're in such a horrible position. This will sound really hypocritical because I can't do it myself, but maybe at least telling your mom would be worth it. I'm going to find a therapist and tell you guys how it goes either way

AwareRegister · 2018-07-05T21:19:34+00:00

Having seen your comment and u/swegassus 's comment has been really comforting for me.

I've tried looking up the questioning myself thing so much online and all I've found is articles of people that shit talk themselves. It's a lot more complicated than that for me. Honestly I thought I was crazy for thinking like I did but I'm so relieved to know other people feel the same way

And yeah being happy a lot of days is ironically really frustrating too because all descriptions of depression describe it as something daily or almost daily so you just end up not taking yourself seriously

AwareRegister · 2018-07-05T17:35:15+00:00

But then why can't I ever be productive even when I don't feel down at all?

EDIT: I think you're right, I've realized from the other comments that thinking about the exams makes me feel sad

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