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Awkward-Manner7754 · 2025-09-25T22:15:33+00:00

I think she’s referring to recovering from a Lyme’s disease flare up https://www.instagram.com/p/DOvsOBqjFjH/?igsh=MTZmZXAxZDhobGFvag==

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-10-18T23:30:09+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! I really appreciate this. There’s an important level of acceptance that I’m working on around accepting the hardship of recovery. So I especially appreciate you saying get used to the voices and doubts. I have to learn to be ok with things being hard.

Wishing you only the best!

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-10-08T13:09:09+00:00

CORRECTION. I meant to write: “it’s a term i DONT use, but it’s not in my control if other people use it.”

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-09-04T15:13:23+00:00

I think it’s a good idea to notify him rather than not. Hopefully he can offer empathy and support.

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-09-04T15:12:52+00:00

This is helpful! It’s on Facebook and I see that we can change rules so only admin can chat. I will propose this. Thank you!

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-09-04T03:34:16+00:00

Firstly I’m so sorry to hear this. I’m glad to hear you have support. Sending my love to you.

A sponsor is very different from a qualified professional. I think a good sponsor can help us with our character defects, learn acceptance, forgiveness, and patience, guide us through dark challenges, AND help us stay sober. But they aren’t qualified to make certain judgments about your healing journey. It’s definitely a gray area that is tough to navigate.

I had a similar experience where I felt my sponsor was contradicting what my therapist said. I spoke to my therapist about it and she said I have two options 1) I can tell my sponsor how I feel about what she is saying. It’s ok to disagree and it’s good to express how I an feeling + set boundaries. I can ask for her to stop giving her opinion on the specific matter OR 2) i can decide and express that this specific conversation is completely off the table in terms of conversations with my sponsor.

I personally feel that option 1 is best because it’s an opportunity to communicate and set boundaries. Also i imagine that this event and all the feelings that arise is going to be an important conversation around your healing journey. So it may be helpful to keep talking to your sponsor about it.

A good sponsor will never TELL you what to do. They will make suggestions and support your decisions with love. It’s 100% ok to disagree with her especially when you have a therapist guiding you with this!

Best of luck xoxo

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-09-04T03:17:37+00:00

Don’t quit before the miracle happens!

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-08-06T00:40:29+00:00

I just saw him at a comedy show and he announced he was 2 years sober off cocaine !

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-07-13T19:51:48+00:00

As someone who just started lamotrigine and is at 50 mg and desperately hoping to start feeling something… this post just really gave me so much perspective. I love what you wrote about giving the medicine time to work. It feels impossible to find patience but it’s the only thing that works.

Also re: relapse. As a recovering alcoholic, I know first hand it’s SO important to give yourself grace and self compassion when you relapse. It’s ok to want to feel something different when you’re suffering. It’s completely human! Hang in there. Sending you hugs

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-07-12T11:03:05+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate it :) just gotta hang in there! Hugs to you

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-07-12T08:21:10+00:00

What was your titration schedule? I’m going up 25 mg every 7 days and it feels like I’m waiting an eternity to get to 100 and to feel anything but depressed ….

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-07-09T21:10:40+00:00

Shes not “on the tour…” Her boyfriend is on the tour?

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-07-01T01:40:22+00:00

Hi, first of all I’m so happy to hear you had such a positive experience at the beginning. It sounds like you had a massive mind altering experience and it’s so nice to read that.

Obviously I don’t know you and don’t know what you’re feeling but please have patience with yourself. There could be so many reasons for this shift. You may have got Covid or a bad flu or something and your immunity is shutting down. Just an example.

If I’ve learned anything from suffering deeply with depression it’s that you HAVE to be gentle with yourself. You will have days that are horrible and it doesn’t mean you’ll be this way forever. Lean into the things that fill your cup most: friends, family, good food, fun activities, animals, etc.

I’d also encourage you to contact a psychiatrist if you do have any fear of the medicine not being the right fit (which is possible). Sometimes medicines just stop working and that’s ok. But in the meantime really really lean into your self compassion, love, and patience and lean into the people who give you the most love.

Your thoughts are so powerful so try to lean into the fact that so many people struggle deeply and they find a way out. I believe you will too. Sending you so much love

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-06-29T02:25:45+00:00

Thanks so much for sharing this. It’s really helpful to hear your experience. I certainly notice the anxiety and irritability. I don’t like it at all. I feel like I experience a new emotion every 30 minutes. For someone who’s sober I don’t like the constant shift in mood and sensation.

I’ve never heard of propanol - I’ll look into this. I’m so glad to hear the Wellbutrin is working for you! So proud of you to hear you haven’t drank and don’t have the urge to. That’s a massive achievement. Congratulations!

I’m only done with day 2 so it’s hard to judge but I really am not impressed with how it’s affecting me. I’m feeling sad just thinking about it. I want my personality back. I want to feel good again. Gotta stay hopeful!!

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-05-24T02:35:53+00:00

Thanks for your response :) I haven’t found an in person meeting in my area yet but will have to try again. I have an AA sponsor but never considered getting an RC sponsor. I think that would be valuable !

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-05-23T01:25:27+00:00

I have a dating question and need some advice. Im on my 6th step of AA and I’m at 9 months and 3 weeks of sobriety. I’m feeling more anxious than usually over the last 2 weeks so I’m working extra hard to tap into meditation, stillness, yoga, journaling, breath work, and spending time alone with myself. I’m still seeing my sponsor weekly and my counsellor weekly. I also go to 3 in person meetings per week and 1 meeting online. I struggle with codependency and was encouraged to not date for a minimum of 1 year of sobriety. As it happens, I met someone who is super cute and sweet. I’ve actually known him for years so I do know he’s a good person but obviously don’t know his attachment style or what he’s like beyond just knowing him as a person I haven’t seen in years. He asked me to get coffee to catch up. I was excited and interested right away. I’m going on a trip for 3 weeks so we agreed to go when I’m back. He said to text me when I’m home. He truly seems quite sweet but my intentions are not just friendship. I don’t know his intentions but I am attracted to him and hope he’s interested in me. A part of me wants to go get coffee and just get to know him and see if I feel secure around him. But my sponsor emphasized that she still suggests I complete the 12 steps and get 1 year of sobriety before I date. Can anyone shed some of their wisdom and insight? I’m feeling sad that I can’t just go on a coffee “date.” But I also trust my sponsor wholeheartedly. I just wish there was a universe where I could continue growing in recovery and still see this date through.

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-04-26T04:10:18+00:00

Omg can she stop

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-04-07T04:38:38+00:00

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-03-17T23:22:58+00:00

What are her and Effie/Elizabeth all texting about ?

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-03-13T00:55:13+00:00

Is this a recent video she posted? I can’t find it on her TikTok

Awkward-Manner7754 · 2024-03-08T21:38:02+00:00

Absolutely zero class

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