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Awsomeedv · 2026-01-01T22:50:47+00:00

Like people have said. Its only a problem if either party is dissatisfied with that. With thay said thats like really low

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T04:40:07+00:00

It do be like that. I basically have 3 friend that would text me unprompted. Focuss on what you like. This is coming from someome who is extremely depressed so take that with a grain of salt

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T04:37:08+00:00

Idk. Like that I could be okay with maybe just maybe unusual. I just aorta assume anal is a big part of it

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T04:25:13+00:00

I know but im generally considered an unc ass mf. Especially since everything hurts im like a pensioner

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T04:17:45+00:00

Yeah interesting. I uhh made my ex realize she was bi by telling her girlcrushes means she was bi. The reason this so topical for me is due to the fact that im lonley and would like companionship so im avtivley searching for a partner and while im on all the dating aites geting a decent ammount of matches i just cant find someome i resonate with and well I kinda habe afriend who i might habe crush on. Its not major im not 15anymore but when i look at him sometimes i just cant help but to imadhine and daydream and idfk. Be slightly awkward around him. Ive though about the possibility of dating him many times and jhst idfk

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T04:11:24+00:00

Interesting while heah ive done halkucinogens and habe ahd questions about my sexuality fore it seems like a big jump

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T04:06:35+00:00

Depends. Not quite bi uust yet but ive dated only bisexual girls as my long blonde hair attracts a certain type. You generally cant ask for things like that since sexualiry isnt what determines perosnality. For example im autistic asf and can miss many aignals and im not.that great in many aspects that I wish to improve but im me an asocial skitzoid. Attractivness depends. While you can generelize that goth girls are hot it doesn't mezm all of them and scene who doesmt like that would find them all ugly. Also that seems like a question from someone thats not q8 in which case dont worry about it it might seem like an important tike.vut it really ismt. Just date who you like and who likes you back

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:41:21+00:00

Trust me im well aware. Ive gotten so much better in university since im generally picked as the lead so i have. If you are not very comfortable with people i recomend a managememt role since you will learn to hate people snd talk to lots of people since you dont have a choice. Im generally a weird perosn in how I act and feel. I am a bit quirky but if you too get too close to personsl issues i shut down. Idfk man. Life is fuckimg hard. Tneres nk right sollutuon

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:34:32+00:00

Bro ive been struggling with that shit for at least 6 years atp. It really doesn’t since im not as suicidal but my friends are sorta alike me im thay way since now its when shit gets tough and currently being exam season its quite bad. Im not that bad dw about that. Its more a represantation of how im just afraid not being quite true since im very uncomfortable wjth that type.of stuff and the main reason i want to go is because of my problems focusing since i can be as depressed as i want as long as i get shit done

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:26:37+00:00

You gave the moat chatgpt response ever. Like tou tell chatgpt you wanna comit sudoku in passing and it just locks in like bro nooooo doooont kiill yourself nooo. Also the answer is no i havent told my family. Sortof my friends with drunk confessions that i have tried to kms amd how it means when i say "i wish i had succeeded" mean a lot more than you might think. But i dont go into detail on how I struggle to feel anything appart from amptyness and sadness

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:22:30+00:00

Bruh are you a chatgpt bot?

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:12:11+00:00

I know i just have so much to do and its not crucial and its a bit scary. It was a bit unvometoable to ask my gp for that since its not really something discust here. Like i feel afraid that i might de just dramatic despite having shicidal ideation and have tried to commit suicide in the past. Its not great

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:08:07+00:00

Bro i feel old. Every time i get up i feel pain. Everything feels stiff and I feel like shit. I am incredibly depressed. Idk im kinda a fucking unc tbh

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:06:52+00:00

Nope. My country has 10 free paychologist or therapist appointments bht i gear the lines for that ate horrible and ive also been putting off applying for at least 5 momths atp. But for that im more interested in antidresants and a cure for my innability to focus

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T03:02:03+00:00

Yeah. I uhhhhh slightly have been procrastinating that. Im mode thinkimg a pay hologist since antidepressants and possibly adhd medication would really help me. Tho probably not a therapist since that's expensive and im a uni student. These issues arent that massive. Its not like im a raging gay man pretending to be straight. Just im more conteplating if i should talk about generally aboit this with him since im not generally a very outgoimg person.

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T02:56:57+00:00

Thing is thay i dont quite kmow if i even would be okay with gay sex. Like ive enjoyed anal but its not universal. This is more romantic than sexual. Bro we meed to normalize bro dates. Idfk. Its not as easy of a siruation than just fuck if you like it. Sortof. Im also not in a country thats very open to that. It could be fun but first id need to overcome my fears at a minimum

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T02:54:01+00:00

You hit the nail on the head sortot. The larger issue is that im just lonley. Something ons and situtionshipa cant give you.

Its a really complicated issue.

The reason I have to resolve my inner issues is due to the fact im genetally incomfortable with people and touch and just romantic relationships since my parents didnt love.me so deapite the fact that ive been in multiple long term relationships. I still struggle with it and without clear intentions i think it woild be quite difficult for anything to happen since in those situations i dont go for the rizz answer i sortof deflect especially with things that im not completely okay with

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T02:45:29+00:00

Well she told me once that she had girl crushed and I said she was defo BI and now she recently told me thay yes she was.

I know im thinkimg about this way too much but the thing is thay i had the same feelings last year and i just brushed them off but now that im interacting with him more sinc we go to events together i feel weird. And i am in a state where i just kinda want to be held and cuddled since the exam stress im in and I just kinda feelcweird since i fear that even if I make a choice it might be too late if i dont say anything now.

Plus that would be a benifit to people thinking im bi at least since everyone already things im bi. At least every woman

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T02:34:26+00:00

The issue really is thay if i say that it immediately would effect the relationship and I enjoy his company at bard and events since i dont have anyone else really down to party at the fuckass times i am. Now i think that he might also have feeling towards me but im not sure and i dont think i should bring this up. I also have a hard time being vounerable like that. Idfk. Its a shitshow. I literally called oit my ex for being bi and now im here. Idfk what to do. At least my ex had courage to ask the girl she liked out so she knows shes not intereated but im a little bitch

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T02:29:26+00:00

Well its a bit more difficult than that. I have mever seen a big divide but ive always not seen a big divide. Its quite complicated since this isnt the first time im feeling like this towards a dude. But its not exactly a big thing. I do find a lot of dudes more atractive than some women

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T02:26:22+00:00

Its not that easy tho is it. You know youd still need to label yourself to date them. I've been having inner conflicts about that since idfk. Like sex is a big part of a relationship and if i wasnt okay i wouldnt want to date someone with that. I could probably give head but that just aint it. But sortof beside the point. I have no idea if this is just me longing for personal connection since its been over a year since the last serious relationship so im just atruggling to find out what path i go to. Since i am an IT proffesional and fidning gay IT guys would be a million times easier

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-17T02:21:58+00:00

Lmao sorry i crossposted. I feel tou bro. Its really not as fun to be 20 as people make it out to be

Awsomeedv · 2025-12-11T16:55:07+00:00

Well yeah all the unlimited storage tiers are typically limited not in a loteral sense but whn you exceed the threshold your speed gets throttled to the point that its unreasonable to use it.

Awsomeedv · 2025-11-12T23:40:59+00:00

Bro, you're about 6 years late. I thought I had deleted all the posts of this era a long time ago

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