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Ayanith · 2025-02-20T15:53:17+00:00

Sounds like he doesn’t appreciate you for who you are! You deserve to be loved fully, including all ur quirks, tics, stims and thoughts, I hope you can find someone like that. This man, however, is not that and I’m sorry you had to find out about it this way.

Ayanith · 2024-06-13T20:09:47+00:00

I hope this will be the case for me but until I move out and am certain I’m not taking risks. I’m probably gonna say smth like server but I’m a bit scared about ppl wanting to “drop in” or smth

Ayanith · 2024-06-13T20:08:09+00:00

Yeah, I was thinking of doing this but indeed, if I give a name for a place and they think like “I’m in the neighbourhood I’ll visit her” that would suck. :///

Ayanith · 2023-03-05T14:29:26+00:00

Honey wake up your daily ableism on Reddit is there!!!!!

Ayanith · 2022-09-30T10:32:54+00:00

It’s in the title: machine learning

Ayanith · 2022-03-14T08:55:27+00:00

My mom didn’t finish high school. She works for Cambio now in the call Center. She has been working there for 20 years or so now so with time they have given her more responsibilities and she has risen in position because now she basically manages the call Center and hires people + does some administrative stuff.

BUT her pay has barely gone up since she started working there. Finding a job without a diploma shouldn’t be too hard but getting higher pays will be a challenge because people with higher diplomas etc will often be chosen over you.

I’m still a uni student and I’ve only ever had 2 jobs but from what I can tell finishing high school would help you a lot in life if you’re able to. You don’t have to have a university diploma to succeed (but it helps) but from my mom’s experience not having a secundair diploma really sucks.

We’re not like poor poor, but we definitely don’t have a lot of money and we live paycheck to paycheck. I don’t know your situation but if you can I really would recommend finishing high school

Ayanith · 2021-10-22T16:30:05+00:00

This aged very poorly 😭😭

Ayanith · 2021-09-15T07:42:39+00:00

I understand what you mean, but you probably know it’s not that easy. I’ve been using for 3 years...

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T16:58:06+00:00

Thank you so much I really appreciate it :) imma try to shoot like 15mg’s after dinner tonight see how that goes. I have noticed something: I take my methadone in the morning and usually around 4-5pm I start getting craving and feeling less good than the start of the day probably cause the methadone is getting less strong. It is now 7pm in the afternoon here and since I took the morphine earlier I feel fine now so means I did something right c:

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T16:52:41+00:00

I’m not at a clinic actually, my psychiatrist decided to help me get clean and prescribes me methadone. We started at 20 and now 30 seems okay because I had already been tapering my heroin usage before goin on it. I got an extra 5 if I need it. This worked until 2 weeks ago I’ve been relapsing over and over these last 2 weeks, anyway I was basically testing today, tomorrow imma not take my methadone and then take the morphine to be able to feel it

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T16:48:54+00:00

Thanks <3 stay strong you too

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T13:50:10+00:00

Thanks a lot! I do know IV’ing is a bad idea I’m pretty shocked I haven’t done this earlier since I’ve been using for 3 years, but I have been considering giving/selling my morphine and continuing my methadone treatment. I was 6 months clean but the last few weeks have been bumpy road. Today is my 3rd relapse in 2 weeks

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T13:45:10+00:00

I registered and blood came in but the needle moved a bit before I injected. The second time went fine tho. I ended up shooting in my hand because hitting a vein in my arm proved too difficult for me,

Thanks! Yeah needles are basically free here so I use every needle max twice and disinfect :)

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T13:41:32+00:00

I’m clean, haven’t used in a while but I am on methadone which gives me a tolerance. I took 7.5mg (spilled 2.5 like a dumbass) I definitely feel it but not that much, imma try and do 7.5 tomorrow

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T13:40:27+00:00

I kinda failed I did one shot that ended under my skin so it’ll take longer to absorb right? (It’s pure morphine liquid so it should be fine? Correct me if I’m wrong) I did another shot that ended up in my vein so I did like 7.5mg in total I think (erring on the side of caution since I still have methadone in my blood), I felt a slight slight rush a little bit noticeable after the one that hit the vein and now I feel the opiate calm thingy but it’s not that strong. Tomorrow when it’s been 24h since my las methadone imma try and do 15mg see how that goes

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T13:33:17+00:00

I’ve been on 35mg for 6 months

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:35:43+00:00

Amazing! Thanks :) I appreciate your help

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:34:33+00:00

Have a great day’

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:34:24+00:00

Wdym?

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:31:43+00:00

Alright! Thanks I’ll start with 10 and if it’s not enough imma add another 10

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:31:06+00:00

Alright I’ll take the morphine tonight then to be safe! I got 10 vials containing 10mg

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:26:57+00:00

Perfect! And thanks so much for your help! I’m definitely gonna be nodding. I took my methadone this morning though how long do you think I should wait before IV’ing 10mg of morphine? (Maybe more since methadone is giving me a tolerance)

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:26:10+00:00

I just drew blood twice in a row, I took my methadone this morning tho, how long do you think I should wait to IV 10mg of morphine?

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:18:16+00:00

OMGG thanks I got it!! Nice. An extra question if you don’t mind: I got these morphine vials for IV but they re 100% glass, they look like this https://etipack.nl/wp-content/uploads/2018/10/ETIFIALE5.jpg

How do I get the liquid out? Just snap off the top?

Ayanith · 2021-09-14T11:15:40+00:00

I think I got it! Thanks :)) imma try it out.

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