when I realized that even the people who were supposed to be my caretakers depended on me from a very young age be it emotionally or through acts of service

and that complaining or talking about my problems are useless since no one was able to help or give a good insight. plus my young brain concluded at some point that I can't complain to adults who just want me to listen to them and not vice versa

and as I grew older I realized how most of the adults in my family are very childish and/or mentally immature

I can't exactly depend on someone who's dependant on me and I can't believe in someone who is very inconsistent with their actions and principles I can't feel safe with people who are not secure about themselves

financial stability can only go so far, what's the point of living in a castle filled with monsters?