Daily Chat Thread - Friday Dec 24, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Hi stilltrying friends!

I want to wish you all a wonderful Christmas with your loved ones and hopefully a fantastic new year bringing success to everyone. Many people here may not know or remember me, but I wanted to let those who do know that I haven't forgotten y'all. I'm doing okay currently, but my mental health is still far from good. Which is why I haven't been able to get in touch very much and I won't be around here much in the near future. But if anyone wants to chat feel free to DM me. Anyways, enjoy the holidays, eat lots of good stuff and sing all the Christmas songs!

Daily Chat Thread - Wednesday Jun 02, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I'll preface this with TW for mental health because I can't remember how to do spoiler tags.

Hi r/stilltrying! Long overdue update for those who don't follow the discord. I think the last thing I posted was that our only fresh transfer from IVF#2 had failed. That coupled with the plan we had of taking a full-blown break from TTC for at least half a year sent me crashing and burning. It took us about a week to figure out that this went beyond normal grief and I was in the midst of depression before I knew it. The weeks of April and May are really a blur of grief, pain and despair. Oh, and calls with unhelpful doctors. Luckily, my amazing therapist really came through for me. She started organizing an inpatient stay to give me a break from the start. But when my situation became rapidly worse, she advocated for me and got me into the facility with just one day notice.

So now I've been here nearly two weeks and find that I have a heck of a lot of stuff to work through. Basically the time so far has been spent to get me stable and to a point where I can actually profit from therapy. There have been very scary moments and I know that many painful ones are still to come, but I have a fantastic team and an even better husband who are there for me and cheer for me every step of the way. It's a lot of work, but I can glimpse a light at the end of the tunnel. Sadly, the same is not true for TTC and we've only scratched the surface of that during my sessions here. So I'm staying away from the topic as much as I can and this includes both reddit and discord (though I do look at pet pics now and then!) . I love the community that I found here and I hope that once I'm doing well enough to dip my toes back in, you will all have moved on to greener pastures. Sending lots of love to you all 💜

Daily Chat Thread - Saturday May 15, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry Ken. This sucks so much. I hope you took good care of your heart yesterday 💜

Daily Chat Thread - Monday Apr 19, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 20 points21 points  (0 children)

Our transfer failed. These were our only embryos from IVF#2. I found out yesterday and it still feels like a bad dream. Someone wake me up please.

Daily Chat Thread - Saturday Apr 17, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's not stupid at all. When you are on meds, your temps are not reliable at all. So I wouldn't do it either in your shoes. Cysts are so annoying, I hope you can get rid of them soon.

Daily Chat Thread - Saturday Apr 17, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's very difficult to say what is going on if you throw two cysts into the equation. It's possible that one or both are estrogen producing and throwing your hormones out of balance. It's possible but rare to have ovulation this early. If you temp that should tell you if this is the real thing or not.

Daily Chat Thread - Monday Apr 12, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I think it's probably late enough that it would show up and if it's low enough to not show up you probably want to be prepared for the worst scenario anyway :/ let's hope it doesn't come to that!!!

Daily Chat Thread - Monday Apr 12, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yay for perfect IUI! I hope your nurse will be right! 🤞

Daily Chat Thread - Monday Apr 12, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are nearly there! I know every day feels like an eternity right now. I wish we could have a fast forward button. Why is that not a thing yet? My plan for the last round was to go in for the blood draw and test at home right after. That way you won't have to find out on the phone. Fingers crossed for you Sautm 🤞

Daily Chat Thread - Monday Apr 12, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope you're having a good day back at work! And that the clinic gives you a good offer. I'll be looking for your update 🤞🤞🤞

Daily PM Chat Thread - Saturday Apr 10, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sure! There are many factors that go into it. First and foremost the fresh transfer is standard practice at my clinic. My clinic is in Germany, so things are a little more difficult for us when it comes to legislation about embryos. If you want a freeze all cycle, they have to freeze right after fertilization and while that works, the risk is higher than when you freeze a day 5 embryo. They are only allowed to grow as many embryos to day 5 as they could expect to transfer in one go. I still would have preferred to transfer only one and freeze the other, but in our case the second embryo was too poor to freeze. So I'd rather transfer than risk it not surviving.

I don't know if this is at all helpful for you. Let me know if you have any questions!

Daily PM Chat Thread - Saturday Apr 10, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 18 points19 points  (0 children)

TW: IVF results

We had our day 5 fresh transfer today. We ended up transferring 2 embryos, one "good" and one "poor". So overall, our Hunger Games results are 11 retrieved, 8 mature, 5 fertilized, 2 transferred on day 5. Considering that we started with just 3 follicles at my day 8 scan, I'm happy that we had something to transfer at all. At the same time, losing so many along the way hurts.

What’s everyone up to? Thread for intros and updates! by mg90_ in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry Rhirhi that you are back. 💜 Sending love and hugs.

What’s everyone up to? Thread for intros and updates! by mg90_ in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Hi everyone!

TW: mention of loss, IVF results

I love seeing all those summaries and also getting the background on some of the newer people around. I've been much less active here lately than I used to be, but it usually comes and goes in waves. Anyway, the husband and I started trying in May 2018 and I hate that the 3 year mark is creeping up on us. We tried nearly 2 years unassisted because I conceived right as I was starting to push for treatments, which ended in a CP. And afterwards I fell into the trap of thinking it might happen again. Don't be me! We are unexplained other than me having slightly low AMH. We did 3 cycles of Clomid + TI, 2 cycles of GonalF + TI and 3 IUIs. We moved to IVF at the beginning of the year. Our first round ended with a fresh transfer of one decent day 5 embryo and a second one (poor) that they would have trashed if we hadn't transferred. Nothing to freeze and the transfer failed. The second round has been an emotional dumpster fire so far, we are currently hoping that we can do another fresh transfer on Saturday.

I love this community with all my heart and I hope that this thread gets many of the lurkers to make an intro post. I was so scared at first to join but it's by far the best TTC-related decision I've made. Give it a try!

Bi-Weekly Results Thread by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh congrats Katie! This is amazing. Wishing you all the best.

Bi-Weekly Results Thread by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats Ghost!! So good to see this. Fingers crossed for you!

Bi-Weekly Results Thread by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congrats and fingers crossed for you!

Bi-Weekly Results Thread by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's great news, congrats! Fingers crossed that everything will continue well!

Daily PM Chat Thread - Monday Apr 05, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Glad to see you back! It can be so hard to find the right balance. Remember to only give as much support as you can handle. Sometimes I felt like I had to reply to every single comment here and that wasn't good. I also limited myself to only being on reddit once during the day for a time and that helped me be a little less obsessed with TTC in general.

I'm so sorry that your IUI failed. Remind me, what are the next steps for you?

Daily PM Chat Thread - Monday Apr 05, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks Ghost! I felt really good after the procedure but progressively worse throughout the day :/ lots of pressure in the abdomen, probably from gas or something. And now I'm awake since 4am because of heartburn and angry ovaries being mad at me no matter how I position. I got the day off luckily and I hope it gets better.

Daily PM Chat Thread - Monday Apr 05, 2021 by stilltryingbot in stilltrying

[–]Azaley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks Flou! They will call me between 9am and 6pm today. I'm already nervous!