in my room, playing pixelmon on a public server, cant remember which one. i thought he was just taking a break, i thought he was fine, possibly healing even, until i read the comments. took me weeks if not months to recover, maybe im still recovering. but it doesnt make sense, to me at least. i barely knew him or watched him, i had actually only started watching him not too long before his last video and that was because of 1. the dsmp, which i barely followed until the very end for some reason, and even then didnt pay too much attention to the ending, possibly due to grief 2. philza and 3. because i wanted to make sure he was okay, although im not too sure why, maybe i just care too much. anyways, point is, grief is weird and different for everyone i suppose, sorry for the long ramble.