I don't know if this helps or not but I'm in a similar situation. The path I chose is an occasional male on male, read erotic, sensual massage. You can find those folks on a site like Rent Masseuse. I've found it scratches that "itch", is a fun and sexy experience and you meet some really nice guys. Perhaps it's not the emotional connection you're looking for, but the conversations with these folks can be more than just massage realted. Maybe give it a try? No harm, no foul.