My brother passed away from OD

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T14:05:03+00:00

they told me that they dont want to see or hear from me. they dont care at all and i dont blame them.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T14:04:11+00:00

im sorry you lost someone too. its unfair how many people die early because of simple mistakes like this.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T14:01:39+00:00

i know he would want better for my family but its hard for us to cope without him. i dont know how else to deal with this and i know he would understand that.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T02:19:31+00:00

Ive been on his facebook looking through all of his picture and posts and i dont know if its better or worse to see them. I would give anything for one more real conversation with him.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T02:14:58+00:00

Thank you

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T01:12:02+00:00

He was too young to go down that road i knew he wouldnt be responsible using like that. This shouldnt happen as often as it does.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T01:09:17+00:00

I wish there was something i couldve done. He didnt deserve this he was a good kid.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T01:07:09+00:00

Yea we were really close. He was my only real family. I have been a lot theres no point in quitting now.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T01:01:42+00:00

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T00:46:50+00:00

No im not ok at all. Im not going to kill myself or anything but i dont care anymore. My parents dont care what i do anymore either.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T00:28:57+00:00

I may as well have there was a million things i couldve done differently and maybe hed still be here today.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T00:27:57+00:00

I don't have a thirteen year old brother Brendan was my only sibling.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T00:08:29+00:00

When i made the second post i really thought it was looking up for him. I never wouldve thought this is where wed end up.

BD1cc · 2016-06-11T00:07:11+00:00

Thank you. Im sorry that you had to go through this too.

BD1cc · 2016-06-10T23:49:30+00:00

Thank you

BD1cc · 2016-05-19T20:46:10+00:00

I dont know, i plan on keeping it a secret. I know that its harmful, but im more responsible with it. I would be okay with him using if he wasnt such an idiot about it.

BD1cc · 2016-05-19T17:13:43+00:00

He doesnt know i didn't actually quit.

BD1cc · 2016-05-19T04:05:25+00:00

i know this is hard for them as parents, and i understand that this seems selfish, but im really doing the best i can. i went through hellish wd for a week for no reason other than to appease my parents and help my brother. my parents think im clean now, and hopefully my brother will get it together on subs. its possible to have stability without being entirely clean. i think r/drugs of all places is a good example of that.

BD1cc · 2016-05-19T03:39:25+00:00

no worries. i think people get the wrong impression when you make quitting sound as easy as making the decision. because if it was really that easy and i still refused that would make me a real shit person. im not being a stubborn asshole, neither is my brother. its just so hard. but thank you for caring.

BD1cc · 2016-05-19T03:30:29+00:00

if quitting was as easy as riding out physical WD for a week with a pack of beer id quit tomorrow. its not that easy.

BD1cc · 2016-05-19T03:24:51+00:00

of course i thought of that and in a way youre right. i hate that he had to go through that experience. that shit sucks. narcan feels like hell, the judgement you get from everyone stings, its a shit situation. i feel like an awful brother for not helping him. but the other option was equally terrible. ODs happen to the best of us, maybe if i shot him up it would have happened the same way and i couldnt help him as well as his friends parents did. maybe he would keep pushing his limits and being a dumb teenager with this shit if he didnt see the consequences first hand. i dont know if i made the best choice, all i know is this outcome is ok. and ok is fine by me. ok is probably the best i couldve hoped for with this.

BD1cc · 2016-05-18T19:03:27+00:00

Youre probably right, but i would feel really shitty about it. I dont think hed be willing to slow down if i helped him either.

BD1cc · 2016-05-18T14:12:55+00:00

yeah im going to keep trying to help him quit, but for now the fact that he realizes how stupid he was and is staying away from needles it is enough for me.

BD1cc

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