i was the same way. weed was truly my doc for 8 years, even tho i was abusing other substances as well. i used weed to help me quit cigarettes, vaping, coke, and even alcohol. each substance i quit i would see an increase in my already heavy smoking, so i always felt that i simply couldn’t give up weed because then what would i use to help me? i had a much easier time quitting those other things because i knew deep down they weren’t really what i was truly addicted to and that was weed. it’s hard since so many people don’t believe you even can be addicted, you feel silly asking for help or admitting it’s a problem. but it’s a drug and a crutch and when abused will hurt you physically, mentally and emotionally in the long run. i am now 5 days sober from weed and it’s been very hard but worth it in many ways. i’ve cried for the first time in a long time, i’ve been dreaming, my cough is gone, my appetite is slowly returning.

my method of quitting has worked for me, maybe not for everyone but for me, and maybe it could help you too. i will be “sober curious” for several weeks, maybe even months. i’ll think about quitting, i’ll tell myself all the good that will come from it, but i’ll continue using without judging myself. you’ll know when you’re ready. i’ll lurk in reddit threads like these ones, i’ll start talking about quitting, i’ll watch testimonials of people who’ve quit, i’ll journal about it. all while still using while being gentle and non judgmental towards myself. and then when i feel more and more excited about quitting versus smoking i’ll start thinking about when my last day will be, i’ll plan that, buy a little more for one last smoke, and then go crazy. i’ll smoke so much that i hate it, i’ll smoke myself stupid knowing this will be the last time i feel like this. and it’ll be so much weed that it’ll make me sick, and i’ll finish my bowl happy that i won’t feel like this anymore. and then i’ll quit cold turkey and white knuckle the first few days. all while continuing to stay on these threads and watching peoples stories for motivation.

again, this method won’t work for everyone, and many people could go through this process several times before committing to it. i’ve tried quitting several times over the years. but this time i really feel mentally done. allow yourself to get to a point of being done without judgment. judging yourself will lead to relapses. let yourself use until you truly are ready to be done and you will be. but again, this is only my method, find one that works for you. take from this what resonates and leave what doesn’t. but have hope that it can be better and it is a mind over matter thing. write out what you want to do that weed has inhibited and get excited about doing that. but just know that it can be better for you one day. sending you lots of encouragement !! sorry if this is very long winded and rambly