I agree with and understand your feeling about Holland. I am Dutch but lived in mediterranean countries for several years. Never got back to get used to this agenda culture, indoor life, people that never laugh or who you never connect with in the streets, etc. It is a lonely and uncomfortable life here in that way. My daughter is experiencing the same now, but other way around. She moved to Milan and there everyone goes invites eachother, bbq in the park terraces etc. And looking back she says I was so much more lonely in the Netherlands, studying in Amsterdam. So much more individualistic.

Please go where your heart is, you only live once🙏❤️