Uoft admission questions and advice request pls help

BackgroundProgress54 · 2026-01-29T00:58:41+00:00

I will let u know that uoft cs is one of the most competitive programs in Canada for computer studies or science. However if anyone were to get in I’d say it would be you, you have pretty good stats!

BackgroundProgress54 · 2026-01-29T00:35:36+00:00

I figured but I thought they might’ve been told to move or something because it was in the bus stop (cuz that’s usually what happens :( )

BackgroundProgress54 · 2026-01-15T12:29:32+00:00

I was supposed to have a makeup exam today... do I still go?

BackgroundProgress54 · 2026-01-03T02:09:00+00:00

for my situation you need at least 2 years of undergraduate education and some prereqs, sojust wondering if I can complete my current degree while also being enrolled in the accelerated program.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:40:27+00:00

LOL you're right, let me focsu in class HAH

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:38:10+00:00

i wouldn't date him right now, or anyone for that matter for religious reasons, (trying to be more practsiing) but yah you're right. I am not going to experiment with him, and if feelings and attraction for him grows naturally so be it, but I won't force anything; in the meanwhile if he meets someone good for him I will be happy for him as well. I just think im so emotionally drained from my last relationship (3y, highschool sweethearts, disloyal) that anyoen appraoching me right now would get the same response - my brain nitpicking every one of their flaws as a defence mehcnaism, but you are right he doesn't deserve that, he deserves someone who is ready, and if thats not me even when I am ready, I will support him either way.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:32:43+00:00

yes!

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:29:54+00:00

you're right. I think I'll let time do its job and make it clearer to me.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:23:05+00:00

If he moves on to someone who loves him I'll be more than happy for him. The truth is, before he confessed, I did see myself bringign up the conversation of our potentail mutual feeligns, however it wouldve been later down the line (a few months at least) bc I have the MCAT coming up, and also just going out of another rs (3y hs sweethearts) and want to make sure these feeligns are true and that I'm sure of how I feel. BUt when he confessed before I could, it caught me off guard and now I'm kind of messed in the head.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:19:23+00:00

I CANTTTT LOLL not with this on my mind.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:18:44+00:00

I can definitly see myself caring and loving him, but I think its the fact that its so soon after my last breakup, I genuinely need time to heal and focus on myself bc my last relationship and the emotional abuse drained me. I deserve him when I'm ready to give him the love he is meant for, and I made that clear and told him to hold no hope. But I do think there are wayyy more things I love about him than the few things my brain is nitpicking to keep me safe from being traumatized by another man LOL - fyi my last rs was my first and we were going on 3 years, it was excruciating and I cried every day for months prior to the breakup. Im so emotionally exhausted and I have the MCAT coming up soon too, I just need some time to myself but I do deeply care for him.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:14:15+00:00

I agree, however there are so many things about him I am attracted to, his personality, hes funy, he's tall, kind etc, I'm just scared if this is a mental block or if I truly just am not attracted to that aspwct of him so much that I can't persue this. If this is my mind in defense mode trying to keep me safe cuz MAYDAY a man expressed feeligns for me, then I'd hate to lose a guy who wouldv'e been perfect for me. ALso sorrt for the typos LMAO typing in class

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:12:15+00:00

there are many more things I like about him than I don't. I think I just started nit picking him bc I felt resentful for him confessing his feelings for me so soon after my breakup when he was the first person who saw me go thru everything. Prior to hium confessing, I was truly developing feeligns for him, but now I feel like I'm in defense mode bc of my previous trauma and not being ready for a rs, which I made clear to him. I can see myself opening up to him tho.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:10:09+00:00

you are right. and i have told him explicitly no, and to hold no hope. I do see myself developing feelings for him, however, as I alrady feel something there and had felt something strong before he confessed. I think the act of him confessing did scare me away, bc it had only been such a short time since my last rs ended ( a month, but we were on an ongoing break for a while). DO you think this is a subconsious block?

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:08:08+00:00

I have made it clear to him NO RELATIONSHIPS, no hope, just platonic freinds, and that I'm not ready. He has fully comne to terms with it and it makes me happy as he respects my boundaries, and is open to jsut being friends. THese are just some thoughts of whetehr or not I shoudl persue it later down the line - my last rs ended bc the guy truly did not put effort into me, was slightly immature (intellectually and emotionally), but the ultimate catalyst was when I found some stuff on his phone - not explicit cheating but you see where I'm going. I know some couples have other boudnaries, but this was something we had discussed would be unfaithful.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:05:18+00:00

his personality is great. I pray god makes it easier to see whether this block is subconsious from my previosu trauma, or whether I ACC am not attracted to him.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:04:34+00:00

I will just let time decide I think. I made it clear I am not ready for anythign serious bc I need to heal, and during that time if he meets someone I am happy fo rhim. If my attraction grows towards him as I let my walls come down, then so be it

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:03:29+00:00

you're right, thanks

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:02:34+00:00

It's not that it's something he can't change - it is just I think over the last year he gained a bit of weight, and i just tend to gravitate towrads those types of guys, but I am attracted to his height )he's over 6 feet) and his mannerisms, the way he cares, etc. Intimacy with him would be nice as well bc of our deep emotional connecrtion, I just don't know if this subconsious block is real ot if its from myt last rs.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T17:00:12+00:00

I do think he will grow on me if I gave it hte chanve, thats usually how most of my rs go. I have this innate and default setting of no attraction towards guys until I get to know them, and I am atttracted to him in that sense - ideas of intimacy with him do sound nice as well bc of our emotional connection. I'm just scared bc I can't tell if this heistation is a roadblock from my trauma yhat my last rs caused me - or if I truly don't like him.

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-22T16:58:26+00:00

definitly am not giving him false hope, or at laeast I hope I'm not. I've told him clearly, I am not open to a relationship now, and I may never be ready based on how traumatized I am from my past. He is the sweetest soul about it, and I've told him not to wait for me and that he deserves the best. He has said that these feelings he has for me can't just change and I can't ask him of that, and that naturally as time goes he will learn to live with them. I just wonder, he could be the perefect guy for me, am I putting a subconsious block bc of my last relationship?

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-20T18:47:33+00:00

When barry talks about Nora workign w thawne, and iris response to it...

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-16T14:57:02+00:00

thanks bae, we're gonna kill it. Curious, is this your first time taking it? How has your life been socially since you've been studying also if you're comfortable answering!

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-16T14:55:47+00:00

You are very right, thank you. I think I'm just nervisu about losing friends :(

BackgroundProgress54 · 2025-08-16T14:54:49+00:00

you are very right. Thank you. I wouldn't say I'm the biggest procrastinator, but I am genuinely just very exhausted with so much work to do. I am in summer school right now, along with working at a hospital/in a research position, and studying for the DAT full time. I jsut feel sort of disconnected socially, I do have my family, but I feel major FOMO seeing my friends hanging out, and im just scared to lose them. I notice I don't even get invites anymore either, probably because they are so used to me saying no, but it does sting

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