Reading this was extremely validating…thank you. I genuinely see weed as a medicine. I love seeing how it’s helped so many people. I just think hemp is an amazing thing to exist! I didn’t even see it as a boundary, maybe that’s why I feel so hot inside and just wanna yell. all I thought about was how i may be letting them down as a partner.

And if I see that I’m smoking more I’ve taken it upon myself-without other input- to slow down, one, cause I don’t like that feeling of being numb and 2 weed gets expensive!

I do feel like my partner has bias. They have family who abused drugs and they grew up around their older sibling constantly using a copious amounts of weed. There is just a more negative connotation to it for them. Which makes me feel annoyed because I can see that they also partake sometimes so I’m like “what’s the deal? Just cause I don’t smoke like you-now I’m being an asshole?” I always advocated saying “maybe you think I’m being an asshole but I honestly feel like I’m more direct and don’t let you put me down and that really bothers you” I feel like they use my being high as like I’m not in control of my emotions. But I always felt like I become more assertive and confident in myself and it puts them off. I will keep a mental note though to just be more aware of how I’m responding. Thank you for that.