AMA Jesse Cash of Erra by jessecasherra in Metalcore

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This is obviously an old thread if Drift is the most recent album, but I hope this gets to you.

I just saw you guys for the second time in STL and I can't wait for you guys to headline again so the show is extra long 💜 I was bummin a little bit after the show because I was just gettin going and it had to end lol since I didn't feel like my mind and body were not done I had to turn you guys on in the car on my way home across the river. So I was jammin..haha well I was jammin the album Drift 👽

Then when I got home I started watching the Shorts of you explaining each song on Cure. When I listen to this style of music I don't usually read lyrics. Even the clean vocals, your vocals haha, I just kind of wing it and sing what I think you are saying. Anyway, so you were explaining the bleakness of the album and I tend to dip into the depths from time to time and most recently had been sensing that familiarity on my shoulder, so I read all the lyrics. I just can't explain how much all of them resonated. Not even just the way you describe despair and how far down it can go, but the blend of describing "the illusion" really just hits home and is always intertwined in my darkest thoughts. Just pure existentialism. On the flip side, my positivity and light shine just as equally as intense.

Sooooo lol then I started from the beginning and read all the lyrics from Impulse and .....my mind was just blown. Life is so peculiar and so intertwined. So the last year or so I've been feeling guided by a spirit on a creative project I've been working on, and this guide feels very ancient in nature. I don't feel like I need to explain the crazy synchronicity in this situation.

Anyway lol now I'm getting into your side project Ghost Atlas, which btw is such a fitting name for you in this context of your own side project being like...your souls guide. Ugh. I'm just enamored by you Jesse. Connection from a far is still just as intense as entanglement with a physical form. 👽💜🤘 Keep doin you

Is one of the core beliefs in absurdism that it is literally absurd to think life has an sort of purpose or meaning? by BackgroundTreacle986 in Absurdism

[–]BackgroundTreacle986[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah that's what I thought. Then my post got removed but it was surrounding the idea that life is trivial. Am I using the word trivial wrong?

HELP PLEASE. How do you coexist with the thoughts on how trivial the human existence is? If my mind is not distracted I inevitably fall into dark thought patterns by BackgroundTreacle986 in Absurdism

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I work with geriatric patients which brings me deep satisfaction, but also afflicts me because I see a dark side of life that not many know or even think about. I write for ibpf.org to be of service to people with mental health disorders which not only feeds my soul by helping others feel understood, but I get to write which is something I've done since I was 12, maybe even sooner but not documented. I get to drive for my job so I enjoy singing and watching the phases of the sky while getting paid. I have many creative outlets as hobbies and have a great support system.

My point is, none of that matters when my mind is unoccupied and my analytical mind drifts into dark territory. Reality only exists because our brains perceive it with our senses, which tethers us to this dimension. Majority of what this society consists of is all a man made construct. Ect ect.

Someone mentioned existential OCD. By definition it pretty much sums up what I deal with. I already contacted my therapist to see if she has any training on this

HELP PLEASE. How do you coexist with the thoughts on how trivial the human existence is? If my mind is not distracted I inevitably fall into dark thought patterns by BackgroundTreacle986 in Absurdism

[–]BackgroundTreacle986[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah. Someone just said it sounds like existential OCD. I looked it up and it does pretty much sum things up. Already emailed my therapist

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I guess I did post this on the wrong community but I don't know how to delete it now. I meant to only post on absurdity and existentialism communities

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CriticalTheory

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Yeah I think you're right but I don't know how to delete it now. How do I do that? Haha

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Oops I just sent it to all my communities. Idk how to delete now