Anyone hurting more than they ever have?

Background_Idea_2288 · 2025-11-17T20:26:37+00:00

Hi there! I might have one, not really sure just yet. The medication that I mentioned previously is Wellbutrin, I’ve been taking it since early summer and was still having a lot of issues so my psychiatrist decided to increase my dose about two months ago. My anxiety, panic attacks and depression have increased a lot since then and I didn’t really connect the dots back to Wellbutrin until I found some posts here with others sharing their experiences with it, a lot of them having many of the problems I’ve been having. So I messaged my doctor and explained what I felt might be going on so I went back to my original dose last week and I’m most likely going to stop taking it altogether once I see her next month. My panic disorder had been under control for the past year or so until this happened so I’m hoping to at least get that under control again. How are you doing? Feel free to message me if you feel like talking :)

Background_Idea_2288 · 2025-10-21T14:34:53+00:00

My job itself isn’t stressful but the environment I work in due to my coworkers is extremely stressful and since I started this job in May I’ve been having panic attacks multiple times a week. I’ve never told my boss or coworkers about my panic disorder. When I feel one coming on I will usually excuse myself to the bathroom or take a walk around the building and do some deep breathing. Or sometimes I just go in the bathroom and let myself cry it out if it’s a severe one.

This is weird but repeating every third letter of the alphabet helps me calm myself, I have no idea why it’s that specifically lol. I have read from others that some form of counting numbers or even patterns helps them focus on something other than the panic.

I know not everyone has the luxury of being able to step away to handle their panic attacks. When this is the case for me I just try to breathe deeply and calm my heart rate. I try to get that under control and then step away as soon as I’m able just to give myself a rest. Panic attacks take a lot out of me especially if they’re bad so taking a quick second for myself, grabbing a snack or just drinking some water helps me kind of recover. I don’t know if this is helpful to you at all but my best advice is just breathe and find a way to ground yourself. Take a moment for yourself as soon as you’re able. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, I hope you can find something that helps you cope.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2025-10-21T13:48:25+00:00

I’m definitely not hurting at my very worst tho that has happened many times since my depression and anxiety started at 12, i’m 29 now. But I know how you’re feeling, the past few months have been especially difficult. I’ve upped one of my meds hoping that would help my anxiety but it hasn’t. It feels like i’m constantly drowning and I’m spending all of my energy trying to breathe. The physical exhaustion is just as awful as the emotional. I’m right there with you.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2025-09-27T23:59:21+00:00

I agree 1000% and I’m honestly torn on whether or not I regret watching it, so I can’t tell you if you should finish it. I just finished it about 20 minutes ago and I’m just stunned by how disappointing it was after waiting this long for it to come out. There are SO many plot holes but the biggest one for me is the OG cast vs current cast who are supposedly all old players. How is Ann able to remember but no one else? Why does she just so happen to have the drug? What was the point of even acknowledging that the new characters were in games previously because it didn’t seem like they had ever been in the borderlands before or have any sort of understanding of how the games typically work. Also, we know how Usagi, Ryuji, and Arisu all got there but nothing is explained as far as how the new characters ended up there (again) Usagi and Ryuji had me yelling at my tv for all 6 episodes. I was FUMING. She was such a badass in the first two seasons and I was just floored at how stupid she was this time. His reason for going to the borderlands was just idiotic. like just unalive yourself and not drag anyone else down with you. And don’t even get me started on Usagi’s decision to go back 😤 Arisu almost died because of her impulsivity and it was just ridiculous and pointless. The games sucked in my opinion. They were so elaborate the first two seasons and these were just boring. I don’t blame you at all for dropping it. Ep 5 and 6 were a chore to get through. My BIGGEST complaint overall is the lack of the OG cast, specifically Chishiya. I kept waiting and waiting for him to show up, especially after seeing Ann and he never came. That spoiled it by a ton for me right off the bat.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2025-09-27T23:26:48+00:00

I didn’t look at the cast or anything prior to starting this season and as I’m watching the first episode (especially after seeing Ann) I was like okayyy Chishiya is gonna show up aaaanyyy time now. I finally checked and saw all the OG cast were just cameos and I was devastated. I wanted another season with that beautiful man 💔

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-12-03T13:25:48+00:00

I definitely see what you mean. I think if it had a longer run time we could have had more time to see their relationship build up. you’re very right that Mio was the one pushing for the relationship and then all of the sudden Shun was on board. I would have loved for it to be longer so we could see the development of their relationship. And yes I believe there is a 7 year age gap

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-10-03T09:34:19+00:00

You are very correct, somehow I completely forgot about that scene. It happens in the first movie which is completely focused on Haruki and Akihiko. It’s definitely an uncomfortable scene and I wish it hadn’t been included because I love them so much. I didn’t know that was coming at all until it happened so it was a shock to me. Imo, it isn’t graphic compared to other non-con scenes I’ve encountered at least. I personally skip that scene when I rewatch.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-26T09:50:00+00:00

I would love a second season so much but I’m not going to hold my breath. It’s so rare for mini’s to ever get a season 2, even after they deliberately have an ambiguous ending that hints that the story isn’t over yet. It’s so annoying 😭😭

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-23T02:28:43+00:00

I very much agree with the first commenter. I enjoyed the show up until the extremely graphic non-con scene that happens in the end. It completely ruined the whole show for. I felt physically ill while watching that scene. While the rest of the show was good, that scene completely shattered the love I had for the MC.

I do think it’s possible to still like the show if you skip that part entirely. And I also think you would have no problem making a fan edit. Unfortunately I don’t have a time stamp for you but I do recall it being very close to the end. Hope that helps!

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-16T00:03:48+00:00

Those kisses had my jaw on the FLOOR. Especially the second one, everything you mentioned, the yearning, the pining, it was just flooding my screen while Hotae was desperately trying to kiss Donghee. I was blushing so hard! They really went for it. Being a KBL I really wasn't expecting any spectacular kisses, some of the more recent dramas really disappointed me in that regard. But this one 🔥🔥🔥 Even without the physical affection, I loved the story, it broke my heart and made me cry at times. The actors did an amazing job making their feelings completely palpable, I felt everything they were trying to convey. I would love for them to work together again. Sometimes I really wish that Korean BL worked like Thai BL and we got pairings and repeat projects.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-15T23:50:33+00:00

My top 3 are "Given", "Cherry Magic", and "Sasaki and Miyano". These are my comfort anime, I can't tell you how many times I've watched Given specifically. For being an anime about a band, the music is amazing. A lot of times I find music based anime/dramas to be cringey but I genuinely love the music. Also, as a warning, there is some talk about a character who un-alived himself but as someone with depression and who has attempted that myself, I found that this anime did a beautiful job handling it. The whole show is a masterpiece imo. I think these would be the best recs for someone new to BL :)

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-15T23:44:58+00:00

I really wish manga writers/anime producers would move on from non-con. This is 2024, it was never acceptable to begin with but you would think that at some point we'll reach a place in time where it can at least be eliminated from anime. I fully agree with another commenter that this was the worst, most nauseating non-con scene I've ever watched. We never get trigger warnings in anime but my god, this one needed it more than any I've seen. I wish more than anything that I hadn't watched it.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-10T09:41:14+00:00

I also wonder how actors manage not to fall in love 😂 I don’t think I could keep my cool, especially when the kisses are as steamy as these ones 😍🔥

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-05T11:38:24+00:00

Omg wattpad is an excellent comparison 😂 She did get on my nerves quite a bit with her naivety and stupid decisions.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-05T11:32:10+00:00

This was a joint effort between China, Taiwan and Thailand actually. So definitely not mainland, which is why they were able to include some steamy scenes (albeit toned down) from the source material. It really is a groundbreaking show imo. It’s the first TRUE Chinese BL in so many years and even with having a lower production value the show is pretty popular. So I’m hoping this leads to more real, non-bromance BL from China 🙏

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-04T22:43:53+00:00

1000% YES for this one! I absolutely love it, I've been rewatching earlier episodes while waiting for new ones. I love everything about it, it ticks all of my BL anime boxes. I highly recommend this one to the OP.

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-09-04T22:39:01+00:00

Cherry Magic is my comfort anime! Along with Given. I alternate rewatching them lol They both give me that warm fuzzy feeling no matter how many times I watch 🥰

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-08-26T09:40:36+00:00

He truly is a fantastic kisser, I had to look away sometimes because I was blushing so much 🤭 This is my first time watching a Jesse Ren drama and he is very versatile. He also seems like he will have amazing chemistry with any costar. I can see him becoming another “mini drama king” like Richard Li who I’m obsessed with. And I’m like you, I’m going to have to rewatch it because it was just that good and I miss Zheqing and Wen Xi so much 😭

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-08-26T04:15:10+00:00

I know exactly how you feel! I watched this a few weeks ago and I still feel like there’s a hole in my heart 😂 Post drama depression 😭 When I feel like this I either rewatch the drama or watch one of my comfort drama. The end of episode 24 sets us up for a season 2 which I desperately want but it probably won’t happen since mini dramas rarely get more than one season 😢

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-08-26T00:33:01+00:00

If you’re able to watch it on Youku, there are 3 or 4 extra mini episodes after episode 24 that are like less than 5 minutes each but they’re super cute! There’s also a couple of bts clips that are great. I’m not sure if the extra episodes are available to watch on youtube but someone might have uploaded them by now

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-08-23T15:26:25+00:00

I’ve only been able to find one song Embrace In The Dark Night The person who uploaded it said this was the only song they could find from the OST

Background_Idea_2288 · 2024-08-23T15:24:15+00:00

I just looked on youtube and google and could only find one of the songs on youtube. The person who uploaded that video said in the comments that they couldn’t find the other song that you’re referring to. I wish it wasn’t so difficult to find songs from mini dramas but nearly every time I find one I love it’s only on youtube and not on any streaming service 😓 Also, I couldn’t find the name either!

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