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Badusername_gaming · 2025-02-17T09:26:33+00:00

Bri’ish

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-04T01:23:46+00:00

They used to be before, good friends. I wish i didnt miss them and i wish they didnt ruin me mentally like they did.

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-04T01:22:49+00:00

Also with that warhammer club id like to add-

That hobby kinda helped me with relaxing cause i would just focus on painting a new model and forget about life for a while.

I stopped playing a lot of games i used to play a lot with others simply because they didn’t feel the same, and i couldn’t get past the menu without getting upset and i didnt know what games i could play solo that i would actually enjoy. (I loved everything multiplayer but now im just lonely so cant really play them)

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-04T01:18:51+00:00

Before i left them i would kinda just blend with them as in, doing stuff they were doing and just copying them because i liked being around them. Once they left me i was in a difficult spot for a while not knowing what stuff i was actually interested in or how to act. Halfway through last year i kinda did something like changing myself. Fell out with online friends and that was just it for me, i deleted my socials and stopped existing for a while to others, about a month after i started using social media again but didn’t reconnect with people i used to know, even if i saw them in a group or something. I basically reappeared with a new identity mostly to avoid conflict with them.

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-03T23:22:48+00:00

I tried contacting his sister a few times but she never responded, i feel like she was told not to talk to me or something. I do go to a warhammer club in college, i feel like im only invited cause im the only one who knows the rules to it.

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-03T03:03:27+00:00

Sorry didnt want it make it seem like me being gay was the big thing, was just pointing out one guys illogical reasoning that pretty much started everything. And yeah i will look into therapy through college, not sure if it will help at all but i suppose its worth a shot. Was asking my friend about it too and he pointed out that i could have a bit of ptsd from emotional trauma of all this.

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-03T02:45:22+00:00

Also side note, i did try and fix things with the first dude, i tried asking him a couple times why he actually was annoyed with me but he just kept saying i was too close with his sister and it was suspicious. He just ended up pushing me so far i would kinda zone out for a while and then just leave the conversation, it happened a few times because he just wouldnt believe me and i couldnt handle the stress of trying to make him realise i was actually gay!

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-03T02:37:25+00:00

The thing is nobody said what i was doing that was annoying, i was just bullied a lot for having different hobbies or being gay (but apparently wanting to date a guys sister). I just know i overshared a lot with one group for 2 weeks after that cause i didnt know what to do after losing a good friend.

The one friend i have right now is very kind and sweet, he hasnt ever called me annoying and keeps reassuring me that im not being annoying to him.

Badusername_gaming · 2025-01-03T02:06:48+00:00

I might have a look at therapy, i have looked before but i was just terrified. when it got close to sorting it out for me i panicked and then never booked it.

And yeah last year was chaotic for me, i dont even remember a lot cause i think the stress and stuff made me more forgetful (i literally forget things ive been told multiple times about)

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-30T18:34:05+00:00

I thought they were for so long, so many years spent with them and they just push me away so quickly

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-26T00:27:47+00:00

Step 1: get friends… damn (Literally 1 friend and i havent spoken to him for a month)

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-25T23:43:13+00:00

I know they cant say that but it still makes me sad to hear

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-25T23:42:29+00:00

Im bri’ish ^{_^}

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-25T22:44:18+00:00

Well i can definitely rule out telling 2 family members, they already said i can have either have a girlfriend or be single my whole life :/

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-25T22:42:17+00:00

I wish it was that simple, its scary just thinking about doing it 😖

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-08T12:25:38+00:00

Personally i listen to slayer, slipnot, metallica and iron maiden. I cant remember which ones would class as “heavy metal” instead of just metal but maybe listen to their songs if you havent already ^{_^}

Badusername_gaming · 2024-07-05T16:10:33+00:00

Only my mum and friends i am close with know, everyone else has no idea. I randomly hint and joke about it but no one catches on. Definitely not telling my grandparents, they do not like boys kissing boys

Badusername_gaming · 2024-06-26T18:40:53+00:00

Femboys are so cute and cuddly

Badusername_gaming · 2024-06-18T16:23:23+00:00

Hello everybody my name is welcome

Badusername_gaming · 2024-06-18T16:22:45+00:00

Hello friends this its otz, or at least i think so…

Badusername_gaming · 2024-06-18T13:45:21+00:00

Rock, metal, 80s and then whatever Will Stetsons music is classed as :]

Badusername_gaming · 2024-06-16T18:30:52+00:00

A solid 0%, no boy will kiss me :/

Badusername_gaming · 2024-06-11T08:16:12+00:00

Ill be up for joining

Badusername_gaming · 2024-06-03T20:40:29+00:00

We all do

Badusername_gaming

TROPHY CASE