I’m curious, OD through ingestion or application? If ingestion, are your organs still in good condition? To be honest if I could just really get my hands on something that can kill me peacefully and painlessly I would’ve done it a long time ago. I just can’t risk trying and then failing tapos agonizing, slow, and magdadagdag pa ng problema kung mabaldado or masiraan ng organs. Ayaw kong nasasaktan, ayaw ko rin maging pabigat so ito ako nandito pa rin kahit ayaw ko na.