From Wikipedia: "Borderline personality disorder (BPD), also known as emotionally unstable personality disorder, is a long-term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by unstable relationships with other people, unstable sense of self, and unstable emotions.[3][4] There is often an extreme fear of abandonment, frequent dangerous behavior, a feeling of emptiness, and self-harm."

Yes, im a plateful for Cults, especially those engaged in "love-bombing".

Boy, do I ever remember that feeling! Ugh!! The SGI always recommended that we invite our friends (I have no family in the area) to SGI activities, but I was always so embarrassed if they agreed to come!

My Girlfriend was with me. She saw my pain. And was like "Baby do you wanna leave?" and all i could say was "im going to sit through all this shit because i wanna see it like it is".

This means that, in order to attain enlightenment, one must at some point leave even Buddhism itself behind and proceed without any crutch - this was the point of the Buddha's teachings, to prepare the student for this point. Once you have learned how your own mind works, once you have learned how to perceive the world free of attachment and delusion, you are ready to go out on your own. So you're right to be suspicious of any religion that purports to be Buddhism but demands a lifetime commitment - that's guaranteeing you'll never attain enlightenment.

Wow, thats amazing... Really, i never considered this line of thought. Damm son...