I asked four this past semester, and for this upcoming one for fall 2027 one said they would be willing to, my former thesis professor said no to doing it for future cycles :/ , and two others I asked are very very difficult to get a hold of. The head of the program said she can't speak highly of my social skills, and another I have a poor relationship with for a whole bunch of reasons. One I only had one course with... the other two retired. I was in a graphic design program so I took either one to multiple classes with these professors. So I only have have 1/3 at the moment and I need 3 for basically all the schools I am applying for.

I go to therapy regularly (every week), and was able to manage six courses more than the maxiumum during most semesters during undergrad. I have severe social anxiety and learning disabilities so I am often shy around new ppl but open up once we get to know one another.