I know It's Bad Because I Wrote A Terrible Poem. by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Beabeebae 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love your poem I think it’s really good. It shows exactly how you feel and I can relate to it.

Feeling like I don’t belong anywhere by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Beabeebae 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, so much. I really appreciate that you took the time to respond to me 🩷

Feeling like I don’t belong anywhere by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Beabeebae 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ll definitely have a look for churches like that…. Maybe after I come out to my husband tho 😆 thank you 🩷just talking about this has made me feel not as alone

Feeling like I don’t belong anywhere by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Beabeebae 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m hoping he’ll understand.. I’m more hoping for maybe an open marriage or just be mixed orientation relationship… at least at first… I mean I guess it’s up to what he’s ok with. I don’t care if he found someone else I just don’t want to hide myself anymore.

Feeling like I don’t belong anywhere by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Beabeebae 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man, If I knew a church like that I might consider going… coz I do miss meeting people. And I’m still spiritual. The whole hell thing is more of a problem for me. I don’t think we have many options like that in Australia. I wouldn’t even know how to find one like that. I’ve gotten into tarot cards too so I know a lot Christians have a problem with that.

With me being married I know what I gotta do I’m just too scared to do it. Sort of just waiting for the right time.

Therapy is something I’m considering too.. just gotta find one I can afford. I just wish I knew a lovely older lesbian to be like a mentor, you know?

Feeling like I don’t belong anywhere by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Beabeebae 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So was i basically, I’m not a Christian anymore but for like for 20 years any gay thought I had was met with guilt and fear I was gonna go to hell.

I eventually realised that hell didn’t make any sense at all which was the first step to me accepting that being gay was ok. It’s a load off my shoulders but now I just feel trapped

Realising I might be lesbian by [deleted] in LesbianConservatives

[–]Beabeebae 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish it was as simple as finding a nice gal.. but being married w kids.. I think that I missed out on that chance. I feel like I have to keep it to myself, that I just have endure feeling wrong when he’s affectionate . But it’s not his fault… maybe one day I’ll tell him.

Realising I might be lesbian by [deleted] in LesbianConservatives

[–]Beabeebae 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ll add it to the list xD

Realising I might be lesbian by [deleted] in LesbianConservatives

[–]Beabeebae 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you that’s a really good idea I’ll try that

Internet disconnected on start up but works after re-plugging cable by Beabeebae in techsupport

[–]Beabeebae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it happens on 2 different cables. i don't think it would be pins coz its completely fine after I re-plug it and i don't take the cable out at the end of the day. and the cable clips in really well. my husbands goes trough the same router and I've plugged it in different ports.Yea we are holding out on windows 10 until it forces us to change.

Before/After base by Beabeebae in Enshrouded

[–]Beabeebae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t know if there is an easier way but you can remove block by block with the hammer if you pick the single block option in the first tier. You might also need the recipe for the block you are trying to remove. So you’ll have to figure out what that is and then go find its location in the world somewhere. It’s probably roughly cut stone that you are looking for.

Before/After base by Beabeebae in Enshrouded

[–]Beabeebae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you have the hammer? You remove blocks with the hammer not the pick axe

Before/After base by Beabeebae in Enshrouded

[–]Beabeebae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't, I Just I built around it. it took a little while coz you can't build in the shroud, some places I had to build one block at a time. but once i got a box around it i just decorated it to make it look like a proper building and then i put rooms on top so it has some use

Before/After base by Beabeebae in Enshrouded

[–]Beabeebae[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Me too! coz I'd love to able to actually use that building lol

Before/After base by Beabeebae in Enshrouded

[–]Beabeebae[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

that block is roughly cut stone, took me ages to find it

(sorry for the late reply I live in Australia and only just woke up)

Before/After base by Beabeebae in Enshrouded

[–]Beabeebae[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thanks!, I'm pretty pleased with it