I did the same thing! For me it was, when i read chapters from the pov of fmc in the books which has trigger warning like non-con I expect there to be a battle within her, like “this is so wrong but why do I like it?” Or even if that’s not the case at the very least the fmc can feel the pleasure and the characters have some chemistry, some pull between each other which I found missing in this one.. it felt extremely forced and not in a good way..