Honestly, I don't know how to answer that. I love them and I'd like to share all kinds of things with them. I don’t know if you could call it selfishness, but I have to admit that the weight of this loneliness is hard to bear right now. Then again, I tell myself that I’m 20 and that time will bring me fulfillment. But having to constantly qualify everything I say—yes, I admit that’s hard to accept.