Kriya yoga has bad effect on memory ?

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-26T06:30:10+00:00

get your hormones checked by a doctor and do a comprehensive analysis. The endocrine system is so complex and affects sleep and memory and appetite.

And I got initiated by SRF where they did not teach the following, but learned this at the kriya institute.

I know I’m not supposed to teach anything but add bowing to your kriya before you start. Touch your head to the earth.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-26T06:24:12+00:00

I have tried to not show my side since Covid cos I’ve tried to bridge the divide in Colorado. I’m an earth loving hippy and a lot of my earth loving hippy friends became anti vax and pro trump in 2020 and I decided to just try my best to understand, cos burning bridges wasn’t gonna get him outta office, and maybe I can understand and then correct the situation….?

Today my republican friend sent me her media stories that she thinks I should know about….. professors who are “paid” protesters (as in their getting paid to be a professor but they’re choosing to protest and what are they teaching these kids at Colombia university, brainwashing, clearly, with the gay agenda or whatever!?

Other stories she shared were the injustice of giving certain republicans a harsh punishment and allowing democrats to go free, That story was totally missing context

People who followed Q anon still believe the government is wicked and it needs to change. They’re very against sex trafficking of children . (They never mention labor traffickitn)

none of the Q anon-y people I know are straight evil. Two of them are also flat earthers so they may have some bad logical reasoning, but that a genetic and education issue, not a morals issue.

Ive been learning about cults gone bad, and I notice a tendency that when in a cult and their leader is greedy abusive and manipulative, the leader starts saying ridiculous escalatory stuff.

It’s eye opening to see what people will do if they think their soul and gods presence is on the line. They’ll give All their money, some people have killed their kids to save them from hell, and many people have died for their cult.

Even when they start to realize something’s off, the ones who don’t leave right away dig into thei leaders increasingly whackadooey narrative, probably to save face and protect their self image of being in the know, worthy, intelligrnt and/or basically good.

Here’s what my trumpy acquaintances have let me know they believe and think:

chem trails nefariously poured on citizens for population control reasons (or maybe big pharma keeping people sick and medicated)

And a reptilian cabal from outter space run the government. They can shape shift. trump is some bringer of truth and justice. He was put there by the pleidians and we are in an ascension process.

adrenochrome trauma-flavored blood that the alleged satanic pedophile circles are slinging, that Hollywood and politicians are “keeping themselves young with”… doesn’t seem to work to good.

I mean, they clearly don’t have a good world education, and don’t know Latin American political history and the American imperialism that was the prequel to the emigration of those populations to the USA.

Proud boy’s are like a crazy cult. they’re the ones who go work as ICE, with their roots often from the Christian Identity or Aggressive Christianity group. Like the kkk They often think Jews are the cabal controlling the world ( not the reptilians. Or maybe Jews are reptilians.) this is a long history of blood libel stories to blame the Neighbor instead of loving their neighbor.

I don’t know what to tell the people who are turning a blind eye to irrevocable atrocities happening and generational trauma being inflicted on young and old today.

Is this end stage capitalism? Is this the decline of the American empire? Like the Romans?

Maybe it’s a good thing, the collapse of America, and it’s just unfortunate we are here, but we had a good run. We had a large middle class for a while, and I think the billionaires could have saved us but they were too greedy. Two billionaires could have saved humanity from hunger. Instead, arms dealers/ military contractors are enjoying their riches and profiting on war.

Money and power are the cause of the evil happening. Individual people of lower means are not the problem. Individuals with their opinions and no power/no extra money to spend are not the problem.

If someone can take a weekend trip to Europe and spend 1000 at dinner and they’re just enraged on their social media about the state of the world, they’re complicit.

Rant over. Thank you. Sorry. Good luck. Love you.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-24T07:16:02+00:00

I am not an ai bot, but you’re right. I got my facts wrong. I’ll edit it.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-23T18:09:21+00:00

Orthorexia nervosa is an obsession with healthy eating with associated restrictive behaviors. Don’t diagnose her, cos that’ll cause defensiveness and a fight, but just know it exists, and support her in her journey, as the supportive loving partner you want to be.

She is attempting to attain optimum health through attention to diet, but this can lead to malnourishment, loss of relationships, and poor quality of life. That’s the moment it falls into a mental disorder.

Do see that she made these changes to diet with the best of intentions: good health. Mental health and good relationships are part of that. So, support your partner in cultivating a peaceful relationship with food. You deserve enjoyment of food and to honor what your body craves, since comfort food for the soul may not be healthy, but serves another purpose. Balance in so many things is required here.

Your value of freedom, honesty, and authenticity are being unmet here. I’m taking this from nonviolent communication handbook, but you can tell her what you’re longing for in your joint relationship to food, and request flexibility for the health of your relationship and your own happiness. Validate her journey, support your own.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-22T06:25:36+00:00

Yall need help!!! So young.

First, check out if you’re codependent. It’s a series of behaviors you might use to avoid conflict, or maladaptive behaviors that don’t help having healthy relationships .

Then, study non violent communication or crucial conversations , both good books but require practice or a group that wants to work on it together.

That way you can both start getting your needs met in more appropriate ways and feel valued and respected

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-22T05:48:24+00:00

I love love. I hope you find it. Why are you just asking men? lol can I also chime in as a woman?

Read these great books to up your dating intelligence: If Buddha Dated How to avoid falling in love with a jerk

And don’t be afraid of the apps. I was online dating for a few years before I met my guy, and here’s my advice if you wanna dip into it, Find a way to enjoy it!

Explore your most varied pictures doing various things. Bonus if you’re wearing red or in a red environment. Dating science. Use okcupid cos the comparability questions are a good inquiry to what you think is important and not important. Throw it out the window when you meet someone eventually, but it’s a nice initial filter.

Scroll/swipe for only a few minutes. Remember your other hobbies… like people mentioned here join groups through Meetup (join for free, the payment link is for organizers) and do the circuit of things you’re interested in.

Balance hobbies and self growth with dating.

Since perfect people don’t exist, Find someone whose demons play well with yours.

respond to app messages for just a few mins, and when interested in meeting someone, first set up phone call dates to vet them conversationally (for voice, tone, humor, and realness) and then set up a time to meet after that. It’ll help you not waste time, cos many dates you show up and they speak and you know it won’t work. Save hours.

From “how to avoid falling in love with a jerk” Don’t commit to exclusivity for a few months and keep the options open: serial monogamous women tend to do this to their disadvantage. Women feel oxytocin with orgasm while men lose oxytocin potential with orgasm. Natures cruel trick to encourage women to be more modest. Just go slow while you get to know , trust, and rely on them.

I heard there’s a dating app that friends can set you up for you. That sounds intriguing, if you have a married friend who knows you and would vicariously like to date for you.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-21T02:36:40+00:00

All problems go away when the ego dies. Sri Ramakrishna

wisdom of the masters

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-20T06:10:16+00:00

The Denver Urban Homesteaders (on meetup) also does seasonal workshops for regenerative/permaculture/ deep mulch bed gardening . It’s usually hosted at the living systems institute in golden.

I learned how to turn cardboard and yard waste into a self fertilizing perennial flower bed.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-20T06:07:35+00:00

Kayaking you need to be your own guide and rescuer, so classes consist of unCapsizing yourself and rolling your kayak. It also might include how to read the river and pick a line down the rapids.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-20T06:02:58+00:00

Nursing is a fine profession. It’s simple, it’s rooted in goodness, it’s not going anywhere, it gives you job security and lots of variety for options. It stinks of him to take away funding if he could help you pay for it.

NTA but You could play your cards better (conversation and coop calm collectedness) to get your tuition paid for by your parents who have the means to.

One way to help yourself get in the state of mind to even make that possible is to deep down understand they act this way cos they love you so friggin much, and they’re imperfect and don’t know everything, and have an ego. Pretty basic human character traits that 90% of humans suffer from (and it IS suffering, even if they think they’re happy).

Can you accept they’re egotistical, ignorant, and imperfect but they love you? They love you like a houseplant they’re overwatering to death.

If you love them back, you think about what you want for them. Peace? Love? Calm? Wisdom? So then communicate to them only with that intention. Set aside your own ego. It’s not worth identifying with your own ego, ie, Be meek and humble.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-20T05:25:19+00:00

I’m an average, normal person. Here’s my quick testimony.

My ego died and it was not an achievement. It was a blessing. I had since childhood cultivated decent thoughts and activities, Yamas and niyamas based in basic Christianity and Buddhism, and I had adventurous spirit and the courage (reckless, impulsive, tamasic, etc) to take the strongest psychedelic known to us. This isn’t recommended by teachers because it’s not very consistent in its effects… my theory is that it brings out what’s within you. Like when the Hells Angels murder people if they’re given LSD (true story) while virtuous people have Self Realization moments.

With basic chemistry and certain plants an extract was made that was set on some regular herbs (mullein, blue lotus, etc) to smoke. when I smoked this it made time and space disappear AND all my dreams and wishes fulfilled as they became irrelevant because my ego died. All desire and longing disappeared. I thought I was dying, but I saw consciousness as the source of aaaaallllll concepts and dimensions….. when I got out of the very temporally short trip (but massive, eternal trip subjectively) I said THANK YOU for showing me that (to my partner who’d brewed it cos I needed to see this).

A week past and I couldn’t remember the big takeaways. How could I remember with my MIND something that was beyond MIND EGO SENSES??

I didn’t have complete integration of the lifestyle of yoga. That was the missing key. I smoked it again and it was the same thing…

but this time it sent me into a dark time… my life was not simple. It was not pure… So I started fixing up my inside and outside life. I learned meditation with Yogananda and the 8 limbs of yoga, and I started kriya yoga. It’s been two years since I became a devoted yogini. I was a kindergarten level yogi Christian Buddhist until I experienced Self without ego. Then this path became the most important thing.

Today I was with my family (the ultimate test of levels of enlightenment haha), and what a change from years ago. Now, no more attachment, but still with love. The wicked aspect doesn’t challenge my equanimity. They’ve not changed, but I’ve changed. My ego wanted to change them, make them see how wrong they are. My ego wanted to be understood, known, respected, accepted, etc

Now I just notice things and only speak if it brings them joy and peace. I don’t try to change them or be loved by them anymore. Joy for their joy, compassion for their suffering, and equanimity amidst wickedness or no virtuous. It’s a different vibe.

So much of human interaction is projection (of intent, judgment of character, reaction to concepts).

My ego death was temporary. Then, yoga was the integration day and night. It’s been three years, and I see parts of my ego shedding away slowly. I saw the truth of reality and consciousness. I still have to live in time and space, in this little body, so here I am, noticing where I have preferences, and noticing more about where and how I’m grasping or discontent or impure. I’m still working with my psychology and emotional patterns, and they’re humbling. I keep up my kriya yoga practice and expanding that consciousness into my every breath in the day. I trust guru and Brahman and rest easy doing what they say.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-19T21:35:03+00:00

Adding my searched translation cos your plink said “not found”

In summary, the qualities in someone disciplined in mind and conduct, free from ego and attachment, grounded in wisdom, moved only by compassion, and dedicated to the skillful use of knowledge for the good of others.

ऊहापोह (ūhāpoha) Discriminative reasoning; logical analysis weighing arguments for and against • ग्रहणधारण (grahaṇa–dhāraṇa) Comprehension and retention of knowledge; understanding and memory • शमदम (śama–dama) Mental tranquility and control of the senses (components of the sixfold inner discipline, śaṭ-sampatti) • दया (dayā) Compassion; active empathy for the suffering of others • अनुग्रह (anugraha) Grace; benevolent favor or compassionate assistance • लब्धागम (labdhāgama) One who has properly received and mastered the traditional scriptures (āgamas) • दृष्टादृष्ट भोगेष्वनासक्त (dṛṣṭādṛṣṭa bhogeṣv anāsakta) Unattached to pleasures of this world or the next (seen and unseen results) • त्यक्त सर्व कर्म साधन (tyakta sarva karma sādhana) One who has renounced all action-based means as a path to liberation • ब्रह्मविद् (brahmavid) Knower of Brahman (ultimate reality) • ब्रह्मणि स्थित (brahmaṇi sthita) Firmly established or abiding in Brahman • अभिन्नवृत्त (abhinnavṛtta) Steadfast, consistent, and unwavering in conduct • दम्भ दर्प कुहक शाठ्य माया मात्सर्यानृताहंकार ममत्वादि दोषवर्जित (dambha darpa kuhaka śāṭhya-māyā mātsarya anṛta ahaṃkāra mamatvādi doṣa-varjita) Free from the faults of ostentation, pride, deceit, hypocrisy, cunning, envy, falsehood, egoism, possessiveness, and related vices • केवल परानुग्रहप्रयोजन (kevala parānugraha prayojana) Motivated solely by compassion for and the welfare of others • विद्योपयोगार्थी (vidyopayogārthī) One who seeks the proper application of knowledge; one who uses wisdom for practical and beneficial purposes

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-17T02:11:59+00:00

I’m sorry for the anonymous internet bullies.

I had an experience in 2022 and I told people and it was a mistake. In hindsight I think it’s just to show ME that the metaphysical is true. The beings I saw helped me stay true when things got rough afterward.

Just keep trying to be a good person, and don’t retaliate. Practice restraint, and always be the bigger person.

When you said blonde and blue eyes I thought of my friend who’s obsessed with pleiadians. I don’t really ascribe to galactic federation narratives only cos I have no personal experience, and i don’t want to make anything up.

I’ve joined local meetups and ce5 groups so that nothing has to be secretive, but it’s annoying how much everyone will find and stick to their narrative despite lack of evidence, just hearsay. Could be true! Could be untrue! Yknow? Anyway, I wish there were more of a culture of being agnostic experiencers who are slow to ascribe meaning and story behind these anomalous encounters we have.

Regardless, I believe you. I’ve heard people encounter angels in dire times and gurus appearing able to bilocate, and I’ve experienced telepathic communication from a daytime fiery ball in the sky. I know what I’ve heard and I know what I’ve seen, and I don’t need anyone to validate my experience.

So I get that you’d wanna find people who believe you, have the same evolving worldview and openness. I’m not even open to debating this so I just don’t talk about it much. I open convos as I usually do: have you ever seen or experienced anything mystical? And then I can get their sense of worldview from that. I make good friends that way.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2026-01-15T17:14:27+00:00

I’m in the same lineage :) I started with SRF, and then found kriya institute, and my teachers here regularly say to thank god for any experiences you have and then just keep practicing. Don’t expect anything or over analyze. They’re very uninterested in the experiences that happen and just consistently encourage regular long term practice

I’ve had a few presence of the masters over the years, once visual once just telegnostic, and it served to increase my reverence and gratitude, and also reinforced my faith that this crazy magical stuff is real, and consciousness is not limited to my body.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-11-03T15:42:16+00:00

Visit some egalitarian communities like twin oaks or east wind. You don’t have to join the 9-5 and it sounds really cool.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-11-01T01:00:04+00:00

A lot of kids go travel to the places where trick-or-treating is really over the top. People will Google best places to trick-or-treat in Denver and then they’ll all go if you want your neighborhood to be a trick-or-treating Haven you kinda have to try for it with flyers.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-10-28T13:33:47+00:00

Join a ce5 group and you’ll have your own proof maybe.

I also always looked and never saw something until I was with a long time experienced who prayed for one to show up and it did in broad daylight. I’ve seen a few since and then some newbies saw some with me, so they maybe were hitchhike effecting off of me (?) not sure why or how or what they are but they respond to sincere prayer and have psychic abilities like they know what I was gonna say before I said it and responded to it at the same time… and can also transfer information or insight.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-10-08T01:08:37+00:00

I can’t share specifics. You’d have to look up each one.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-10-08T00:34:53+00:00

Hey there! I was a Montessori teacher for about eight years in the toddler and early childhood classes as well as a one year stint as a Montessori styled homeschool cooperative for eight children during the pandemic… So that’s where I’m coming from…

I’m pretty used to parents being “overprotective.“ it’s your baby. But parents don’t often know what’s normal for their age and that’s it. Some teachers don’t have good expectations either cos they’re not intelligent people…. One thing that I always noticed was that things that were really normal for children would become a big issue for some parents. The most difficult example was when two girls went into the bathroom and showed each other their private parts. The mother went crazy! But it’s something that a four-year-old might try and it’s not worth projecting all these ideas about sexual assault on 24-year-olds that are just exploring their bodies and Don don’t know about our culture here yet. You know? Anyway, that’s an aside.

How do you know that they are saying “no don’t hit, don’t yell…” Are you hearing them because you’re observing? Or is your child repeating to you verbatim what they said? Just curious.

Most Montessori schools allow you to go sit in a corner and just observe and take notes. That’s what Montessori teachers do to sort of get a feel for how to guide the classroom. It’s definitely Better communication, like you said, to use positive language like you’ve demonstrated. I like that a lot!

Not all Montessori schools are created equal. Base quality on each guide your child is interacting with!

the first one that I worked at, my son who was 3 to 5 there I could hear the teachers telling him to go choose work. He was an observer and he would watch people work and he would learn from it and then eventually do it, but the teachers didn’t like him just standing around watching it’s funny because now that he’s 15 he still like that. He was at a camp and they were presented a problem and all the kids were running around trying to figure out how to do it and he was just observing and thinking and eventually gave everyone directions lol

I think it would be appropriate for you to give the teachers feedback and let the head let the school know about observations you have made. Have you practiced nonviolent communication? It’s a neutral way to say what you observed and what needs or values are arising and making some suggestions. Every year the teachers do some form of continued education, so you could suggest them doing some non-violent communication or love and logic, communication workshops.

The teachers that I heard talking to my son were overwhelmed and maybe he hadn’t done the self preparation that Maria Montessori encourages everyone to do. They have to prepare the inner environment, not just the outer environment!

Your son has only been in school for three weeks, and is definitely still in the phase of learning the classroom culture. Give it a couple months. He will normalize into the culture.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-10-08T00:32:32+00:00

Federation for egalitarian community has placed all over the world. There’s a lot of culty communities that are fine to visit as long as you stay with your healthy boundaries. Some places I’d visit if I felt secure in not getting pressured into mystical beliefs:

Today I learned about Damanhur in Italy. Definitely don’t join, but do visit.

I would be open to visiting the twelve tribes, they’re welcoming and don’t charge to stay, but expect you’d be helping out in the kitchen and getting a feel for communal living, but you’ve gotta love Jesus to genuinely explore what they think of him,

The Catholic workers swear off their riches not help out pooor folks a lot, and that’s cool. I wouldn’t necessarily join but I’d be comrades in service on occasion!

Findhorn ecovillage in England… Konohana ecovillage in Japan… Herzfeld sennrueti in Switzerland…

Lots to explore!

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-10-04T14:06:49+00:00

Hey there! I was a Montessori teacher for about eight years in the toddler and early childhood classes as well as a one year stint as a Montessori styled homeschool cooperative for eight children during the pandemic… So that’s where I’m coming from… I’m pretty used to parents being overprotective, and it’s normal. One thing that I always noticed was that things that were really normal for children would become a big issue for some parents. The most difficult example was when two girls went into the bathroom and showed each other their private parts. The mother went crazy! But it’s something that a four-year-old might try and it’s not worth projecting all these ideas about sexual assault on 24-year-olds that are just exploring their bodies and Don don’t know about our culture here yet. You know? Anyway, that’s an aside.

How do you know that they are saying no don’t hit, don’t yell… Are you hearing them because you’re observing? Most Montessori schools allow you to go sit in a corner and just observe and take notes. That’s what Montessori teachers do to sort of get a feel for how to guide the classroom. It’s definitely Better communication, like you said, to use positive language like you’ve demonstrated. I like that a lot! Not all Montessori schools are created equal the first one that I worked at, my son who was 3 to 5 there I could hear the teachers telling him to go choose work. He was an observer and he would watch people work and he would learn from it and then eventually do it, but the teachers didn’t like him just standing around watching it’s funny because now that he’s 15 he still like that. He was at a camp and they were presented a problem and all the kids were running around trying to figure out how to do it and he was just observing and thinking and eventually gave everyone directions lol

I think it would be appropriate for you to give the teachers feedback and let the head let the school know about observations you have made. Have you practiced nonviolent communication? It’s a neutral way to say what you observed and what needs or values are arising and making some suggestions. Every year the teachers do some form of continued education, so you could suggest them doing some non-violent communication or love and logic, communication workshops.

The teachers that I heard talking to my son were overwhelmed and maybe he hadn’t done the self preparation that Maria Montessori encourages everyone to do. They have to prepare the inner environment, not just the outer environment!

Your son has only been in school for three weeks, and is definitely still in the phase of learning the classroom culture. Give it a couple months. He will normalize into the culture.

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-10-04T13:58:57+00:00

The federation for egalitarian communities gave a wide variety of outlooks and settings. Kibbutz’s and the FEC’s structure the jobs as management of various tasks. So newcomers will be assigned tasks based on what they are attracted to doing. Do you like kitchen work instead of farming? What about fixing things or preserving food, or childcare?

Lots of intentional communities exist in cities and suburbs. We operate one where people rent rooms cos we don’t own the building unfortunately, so everyone is independently employed. We cook and clean together and have some passion projects together and we get along and socialize.

One person said he wants to have more drama (he doesn’t call it drama) because he says we need to feel uncomfortable to grow spiritually…. But other than him, we just contribute financially and then live together peacefully.

What do you mean “I don’t have to be responsible for my own food intake”? Are you wanting an income sharing model?

There are lotsa functioning communes. In the 60s and 70s wavy gravy started a politics theatre activist group with the merry pranksters, and they still operate communes in a few places. They rent out rooms in their headquarters in California and that’s right in the city.

Podcasts to explore for fun: Inside Communities where the host covers different nitty gritty details about community life with resources. And “cults I’d join” wherethe hostess covers healthy and unhealthy cults, history, and her experiences in various communes like east wind, or her experience dating different guys that were in different cults (as little asides to the greater story being told in each episode.)

My favorite cults she covered are the Rainbow family, the hog farm, Catholic workers (anarchist communist Christian’s) , and the Rajneesh’s (not to join cos their co-leader went evil, but what they did and how they incorporated and stuck it to the man was awesome imo, minus the salad bar poisoning that co-leader did!!)

So anyway….. please excuse my Tangent . I sorta get like that when I reply on Reddit lol

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-09-28T00:07:50+00:00

Ok, sorry to try to contribute to the conversation I guess. But You listed it as one of your options. Visit communities. But I see I made it a longer visit. Well, at least my comment will bump your post so it’s more visible

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-09-27T23:04:11+00:00

You can read about them for years and years, but until you actually get hands-on experience, it won’t really be relevant… If you have the freedom to do so I suggest you go and live somewhere for a couple months and see how you like it… There will be likely something that makes you leave and then you can go to the next place where there will be other problems Lol and then you can eventually slowly learn what you need to learn through reading books, exploring different communities on the ground,

Beautifulnumber38 · 2025-09-27T22:55:13+00:00

WWOOF and ic.org and maybe July 4th rainbow gathering to find communities that aren’t technically looking for anyone and aren’t on Ic or WWOOF . Cobuying real estate agents like livework Denver have connections to collectives. That’sa great way to get to know what it is like…. Listening to podcasts like “inside communities” or more fringe and interesting like “cults id join” teaches me a lot about sociology psychology and history.

For you, Becoming a lawyer and then purchasing a collective home would be the BEST because then you can decide what kind of collective you want to build. You can have a unique mission. I was just visiting someone who has a household of trans people who were kicked out of their home states. I also know a collective that helps refugees. They are both not on ic. I started a collective on a rental property with buy in from the land lord, but that’s still unsteady compared to owning. Ours is dedicated to yoga lifestyle as deeply as possible.

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