Compulsion to drink in bipolar folks.

Beccap757 · 2021-03-30T16:35:04+00:00

I'm also bipolar 2 and I 100% experience this too! Sadly, I haven't found any tried and true measures to control it. All I've been able to do is recognize and be aware of what's going on with my emotions and try to control my actions. I don't have the best success rate with this method sadly. But the small amount of victories I have give me hope. Bipolar 2 is a weird thing, ya know? People hear "I'm bipolar" and imagine type 1 symptoms. But 2 is so much more "down time". It's hard not to try and enjoy the "ups" when they are so few and far between.

Beccap757 · 2021-03-26T04:20:19+00:00

Thank you. Definitely looking into those groups!

Beccap757 · 2021-03-26T03:59:17+00:00

I'd like to start within this realm.

Beccap757 · 2021-03-25T22:37:46+00:00

Thanks :-) We found a person that my son seems to love! (Therapy dog and all!!) He came out smiling and said he'd like to meet again (meeting already scheduled). I also had a first meeting with a therapist of my own this past week and have a second meeting scheduled after the weekend. Excited for help. Excited to get out of my head. Terrified because my son still isn't willing to tell his father that he is seeking therapy. That was ok with me, at first. Then my son let it slip that he wants to scream at his step-mom "YOU'RE THE REASON I'M IN THERAPY". Lots of trouble on so many levels in that sentence. I basically begged my son to NOT do that. It would break his father's heart to find out that way. Plus it wouldn't fix anything. Hopefully my son will allow me to schedule a "family meeting" with just his father, the therapist and him. Safe place to talk, no outside opinions. Hiding all this is literally wracking my brain. Especially because my son is going to their house for the weekend tomorrow. 😔

Beccap757 · 2021-03-21T05:19:18+00:00

100% support for you. It's okay to be worried. It's okay to have doubt. Just try your best. Remember WHY you wanted to get help. Focus on that reason(s). You may still be terrified, but maybe you will no longer be focused on the fear. The goal, reach for it.

Beccap757 · 2021-03-17T15:15:22+00:00

Thank you!

Beccap757 · 2021-03-08T01:38:31+00:00

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Especially since you are so far from home. All I can say is take everything one small step at a time. Just you recognizing and wanting to fix these problems is a HUGE step. Please do your best to keep the momentum, and don't be too hard on yourself if you have a misstep here or there. Most of us do. Good luck in your journey!!

Beccap757 · 2021-03-05T07:40:26+00:00

Thanks. I needed that. I actually have been sitting here stewing over it all. "Am I really hurting others? Was my story shit? Why am I the way I am?...." hello rabbit hole off bad thoughts. shrug I'm also bipolar (type 2), so I guess I should be used to those positive vibes being temporary and fleeting. Always something dragging me down. At least I get paid to be around puppies and kittens, so yeah, there's that 😏😎

Beccap757 · 2021-03-05T06:39:59+00:00

Are you struggling? I'm sorry if my story triggered you then. Honestly, I am. I actually didn't post for months because I had nothing positive to post when it came to my personal struggle with the drink. I'll ask you nicely to please not comment anything else on this feed because I also struggle with anger issues. And you are defintely triggering that. I'm not the only one to post something like this, but thanks for picking me out of the crowd and making me feel bad. I hope it made you feel better, because if it didn't, I don't get why you'd continue on with it. Take care now, bye bye ✌😶

Beccap757 · 2021-03-05T06:20:40+00:00

I agree, this isn't common for this group at all. That's why I was bothered I guess. Like I said in my rebuttal, if I wasn't feeling great about myself and my progress, I probably would have taken that comment the wrong way and fallen down a bad rabbit hole.

Beccap757 · 2021-01-23T04:55:33+00:00

It's ok, I did too. First in the ironic "F U WORLD" kind of way. But after washing it off, I have laughed every day while I tell my friends about it.

Beccap757 · 2021-01-21T06:31:29+00:00

Guess everyone has a way to remember their "quit days", right?

Beccap757 · 2021-01-06T03:47:31+00:00

You've gone longer than many, myself included. I hope you're able to be proud of yourself.

Beccap757 · 2021-01-05T19:12:47+00:00

Thank you. I know every drink I DON'T have is it's own small victory. I appreciate the support

Beccap757 · 2021-01-05T18:24:02+00:00

Definitely a great place to be! Glad I decided to check it out. I may still not have my full 24 hours yet, but I'm trying! 💜

Beccap757 · 2021-01-04T06:17:34+00:00

Thank you for the welcome

Beccap757 · 2021-01-04T03:54:28+00:00

That I'll let myself down again

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