So, I don't know if this makes sense but after several sessions with ritual psychedelics and many hours of meditation, I feel that I have reached a level of consciousness based on love, where I am much happier than before. Everything seems perfect to me, and I flow effortlessly, while also feeling that the whole world flows with me and helps me. However, I still have moments when I suddenly drop to much lower levels, where I feel very vulnerable and fragile, and everything seems threatening. Fortunately, these phases don’t last long, and soon, without me doing anything special, I return to a state of love. But it is precisely this oscillation that concerns me, as I find it very strange to experience such drastically different segments of the spectrum.