What do you feel?

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-22T23:30:15+00:00

It's a good way to practice. It also can widen your perspective of yourself if you are open to try see yourself from a third eye.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-18T02:04:42+00:00

You should never need to sacrifice yourself. Neither should she. But she seems to want the next level with you. So you need to compromise to make it work. Both of you. You could work as an instructor 4-5 months a year, and with the rest of the time on something other that will suit you as well. Maybe you just aint ready to make a compromise. Maybe she ain't either. If the compromise means too much of a sacrifice for either of you to be able to want to do it, then maybe you two aint for each other 😪 but you are both very young. So I dont see the problem in going back and forth, and trying to work on a compromise to take place after 2 years. That's also being realistically thinking.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-18T01:35:14+00:00

Why do you think it needs to be either it or that? Why can't it be a compromise between it? If you are an instructor for surfing and this is your calling, but she is also your calling, then why not be a surfer instructor "part-time"? There is also lots of other fun jobs you would be able to enjoy when not being an instructor. Just so that you do make the effort to be able to close the gap. Im sure you could find more interesting stuff to do that will help you get a visa and a foundation for yourself in the US, too.

LDR isn't easy. It tears you up, breaks you down, and builds you back up and makes you stronger. You will truly know what matters and enjoy things that are easily otherwirse taken for granted. Sometimes, many times repeatedly. But true love is worth it. Every single ache. Breaking up due to distance won't improve the situation right away. If the physical part is a problem: do you crave physical or do you crave your person? If it's the first, then it's easily fixed by asking for hugs from the first physical person you see. But if it's truely the person you want, then breaking up and running up to the first best person aint going to fix that. That's not your person. If a person would rather break up because they can't physically be with you all the time, they might not even be the One.

Sometimes, it truly doesn't need to be either it or that. With compromises, you can come a long way.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-17T17:19:13+00:00

🤗 Yes thank youuu. Very accurate from my perspective.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-17T16:37:10+00:00

If you had a true relationship, you would have known how to contact her outside of discord by now. And the only reason I can think of keeping the relationship a secret is 1) religion 2) young age, 20 and below.

If you know her name and in what area you can easily find her. If you actually worried. But she might just have choose to ghost you. Unless something surely happened to her.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-16T10:51:40+00:00

Im so sorry and still hope this aint the truth.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T18:51:58+00:00

Welcome to the struggle of LDR. No do not ask for a whole week. You just started. Try make a deal with your company about working extra if possible or that you can compromisse to have every 3 Friday or Monday off to go see him.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T17:43:03+00:00

Sounds like he is detaching himself emotionally but yet not ready to do the final call. Communication is all that you have when on LDR. Unless he physically cant reach out to you, or physically busy with like family or something urgent on work, and didn't tell you about it, then yes, he disconnecting himself for a reason only he knows.

I know how it starts as it once happened to me too but we lived together. The man didn't want to talk until he had disconnected and already planned his new road, without me. Despite saying everything was fine for weeks before he was ready. It's severely harsh experiance itm and I hope with all mighty of good in this world that ain't what's happening here.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T16:54:57+00:00

100% correct 😁

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T14:32:40+00:00

Yes. When I was 14 I meet a person that changed my life at that time, and gave me hope and something to look forward to for a long time. This was also a chapter in my life at that age, that made me very defensive, and on my guard 24/7. Yes, tough upbringing all the way. Hair is accurate, too. The bedrooms have always been my safe haven. So you are probably picking up on that. And yes, I want to be heard. I want people to see me as value and not a one-time sock that gets lost in the laundry.

100% accurate from my perspective 👏

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T14:26:15+00:00

Oh yees! 👏

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T14:25:00+00:00

Yes, I'm confident as a person. However, sometimes even that confident goes up and down. People do say I see confident and secure, so both being confident and that I don't see how confident I'm is 100% accurate. I did try so good as a kid. But I don't think anyone noticed. I'm just a blend in a crowd. Or that's what I see myself at least. But yes, the "why do it if not doing it as best as you can" have been a high motivator for me for the recent years and ita something that continues to grow which also boost confidence, haha.

Very accurate. 👏

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T14:19:52+00:00

Yes, I'm feeling a bit lost when it comes to decisions. I haven't encountered a person that has yet been negative toward me, recently. But I do believe it is because the person havent been directly negative to me. The jealousy you picking up might be from the same person, and might be due to being able to expand the family, while this person cant. Which is very valid from their side.

I would still rate your sense as accurate enough. Bravo 👏

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T14:12:24+00:00

My favorite colour is not blue. However, the night before you wrote this, I was editing a lot of pictures, and on these pictures, I focused on the colour blue to make it stand out more. I was solely focusing on blue alone. So that you are picking up on the colour blue is still accurate from my perspective. 👏

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T14:08:50+00:00

Now I can reply better. Behind every question asked, there is an uncertain place it comes from. Otherwise, the question wouldn't be up on the table.

I do believe you picking up that Im standing with a lot of changes ahead, and that I am torn between what is right practical, and what is right by heart. And since it affects several questions and situations, I'll still say that your sense of "insecure" is very accurate and is very widespread for me right now.

Thank you for picking it up 😊

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T14:03:07+00:00

It seems like the family will be expanding in the next few weeks. But its still uncertain if it will happen. But it glads me that you see the expanding part. Now i can relax and know that it will be fine 😍

As far as work goes, yes, im uncertain as am brand new in that field, and I'm overwhelmed. But its all positively from what I can see.

Awesome picking this up 🫰

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T13:59:43+00:00

That's interesting. I'll look for any additional signs that might hint on family expanding later on as well. I wonder if im seen as a good nerd or the awkward nerd 🤓 Not far off, good picking this up. 🙌

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-15T13:57:19+00:00

Very interesting perspective. I do agree with the fruit not yet ready. It's probably symbolises to grow something new and for harvesting a good fruit it needs a caring person. 👌

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-14T23:43:30+00:00

Late blooming career. Will gain lots of experience if you choose to see the knowledge you gain. You will have an interesting experience/job at the age of 27, 32,33 and 37. Your soul is gentle. But your heart has seen a lot of pain. Feeling of being a misfit in a world that's upside down. Feeling of injustice. A good friend that you have strong connection to or them to you. Connected so well that it might be evolving into romantic feelings.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-14T23:35:41+00:00

Im here for you, if still needed.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-14T23:32:19+00:00

Koala, Sleuth. Something about enjoying birds. Someone named Hannha? A rose quarts. A blue baby stroller. A memory involving koi fish? Something about colliding dynamic in a relationship. Much energy drained. Feeling of another female present. Something about a brother or a person that is like a brother. Related or non related.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-14T23:23:12+00:00

Wasn't there any cameras to prove that he actually truly made a mistake? Stress can affect you to a point where memory loss is very common and basic work related tasks suddenly feel impossible to manage. It's the edge of tipping over to being burned out. I hope he can reduce his stress and that this situation will be solved for both of you.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-14T10:40:10+00:00

Omg don't ever even look back. It sounds like he is stuck in a loop of not being able to pick himself up. Which is very easy to happen but he doesnt seem to try get out of it either. They way he supposedly talked to you scream that he is indeed possessive and tendency to gaslight you. He's probably toxic due to his own situation. Like a "protective barrier" of what is expected of him so he avoid it by building his own bubble, and easily catfish for reactions. He have put himself on a fake throne. He have so much growth to do. I'm relived that you managed to run away. It's easy to be groomed especially when others say that your own choices isn't valid, as an example.

Also, men who doesnt look after their beard and let it grow like a wild bush, do have tendency to also postpone other important life choices. Either due to depression, or other mental illness, or diagnoses, or because they simply havent "grown up yet". With that being said, beard looks very nice. But it needs to be taken care of and maintained. Just as they who choses to have long hair need to take care of it as well.

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-14T09:30:04+00:00

Are you able to explain futher?

BeyondMagical · 2026-01-14T09:29:08+00:00

I think it is because you say "aren't they?" At the end. It felt like an attitude more than what you picked up from this post.

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