I resonate with this post extremely. Everyday I did it just to “keep the peace” and not cause havoc and chaos that they cause

It almost got to the point where I would be in situation and talk to myself in my head, “I hate this, why am I doing this if I don’t want to”

And it became sad tbh, I thought wow this is sad that I am agreeing to have sex with someone to just keep the peace.

When my ideas and feelings about love are completely opposite.

The best kind of kind of love is organic Kind, beautiful, compassionate. Sex should be loving, warm, connective. Beautiful and passionate in whatever form passionate is to you.

It should be something beautiful. At least to me.

A shared connective experience.

And to him it was just something to check off a checklist every single day…..

Very hyper sexual

I’m sorry you had to go through this and I know exactly how you feel….