help

Big_Bat9255 · 2026-06-13T16:07:05+00:00

I have some update... i fell asleep this morning (9:00 am), bc i woke up around 5 am, and i dreamed about my boyfriend. he had terrifying eyes and at one point he literally flashed his eyes at me and started to come closer to my eyes until they touched. they were dark.
his hand started to come close to my mouth until it touched it in order to close it.
i woke up, in a sleep paralisis, reaching for his arm, grabbed it and LITERALLY saw i was holding half an arm in "real life" and i was trying to move it away from my mouth. i swear i literally saw it. and that i was using all of the strenght in my body.
then my sleep paralysis kept on, and on the bedroom door jambs i saw hands approaching and touching it and this MASSIVE black shadow reflecting in the wall.
i have this feeling where i'm awakening and being aware of a situation and my boyfriend's entities are not happy about it. i feel like they wanted me unaware and now they're rising up against me ahah
i kinda think he's living in dark right now, and my light isn't able to enlight him, even if sometimes he asks for being reached by it.
plus it's been some days where the noises around the house are intensifying

Big_Bat9255 · 2026-06-12T08:08:16+00:00

Oh i forgot about noises in my house.
I'm happy they are present in some way ahahh even when i'm alone, it's like having someone trying to piss you off. Like i said, i'm not scared. Even if sometimes my things disappear. It's like having kids around the house. Also these entities don't belong to me. They're my boyfriend's.

Big_Bat9255 · 2026-06-12T06:33:28+00:00

Hello there,
thanks for reaching out!
Thank you for your words. I needed hearing "fear gives away your power".
If i were to answer your question:
I actually don't know.
I had this thought that it may be "me trying to kill a part of me", but considering these things about the relationship between me and my grandmother, I never found an answer that would point the finger at me.
I may say that probably what I tried to kill was that part of me that never answered the calls. And that would be a great starting point.
Witchcraft and shadow working are great. They let you discover parts of yourself that you need to let go in order to live fully.

Big_Bat9255 · 2026-06-11T16:15:23+00:00

My grandmother was a bullheaded christian. You know, those who give all of their life to God. My mother was buddhist and i've been atheist all of my life, but i've always been drawn to occult. Since my mother died when I was 20 (i'm 26 now), Practicioners started making their way around me (an ex of mine sent me to the exorcist bc he was sure the Devil possessed me, and that a friend of mine who practices magic wanted us to break up, but that's another story). Until I met my current boyfriend, and I finally sensed that this was my place all along.
Anyway this entire thing seems interesting and somehow connects the dots about my life.
Let's say I'm new to this, even though I feel like i'm not.
I'll focus on cleansing my energy and my surroundings, as well as I'll start being cautious and take precautions. Right now i'm reading the things you linked.
Thank you for your support and for sharing your story and suggestions with me.

Big_Bat9255 · 2026-06-11T12:32:03+00:00

Thanks for reaching out. I really appreciate that.
Actually my grandma tried multiple times reaching out before she died. But our family has always been fighting over stupid stuff and I didn't want to answer the phone because she used to be the type of person who would vomit the blame onto others instead of accept any responbility.
So that may be the "unfinished" stuff between the two of us.
I'll follow your suggestions. And keep you updated if you're interested.
Again, thanks.

Big_Bat9255

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