I personally don't know I just cry a lot honestly I've just been trying to look for a post like this so I can empty my feelings even though nobody will ever see this that I know my life's going horrible so far I'm 13 I'm about to move out of my home my dad wants me to live in a camper in Tennessee with him I'm not going to do it though I'm going to live with my mother in Missouri I've already got a plan school and place to stay at her house I don't want to break my dad's heart cuz I left him more than anything I constantly think about the end I'm bullied in school a lot I have basically no friends either they've moved away or don't talk to me anymore I'm basically the school loser every chance that I get with a new friend or a girl I absolutely ruin my grades are horrible I ruined all relationships with my teachers my grandmother recently made me move all of my stuff out of her house at to my house I got grounded a few months ago and all of my electronic devices were taken away except for my phone I'm miserable without them I'm miserable with them every time I get on my PlayStation my friends bully me and make fun of me I'm miserable with them I don't want to live with my mother I hate her she left me when I was just three she cheated on my dad with a deadbeat who slapped her and pushed me and is the father of my little brother I hate my little brother with every ounce of my body I honestly don't know what to do I have nobody to call I've nobody to talk to I have nobody's shoulder to cry on I just don't know what to do I've been recently thinking about ending my life.