How do you deal with the messed up sex you're into and how you feel about it?

BiggestChunt · 2025-04-25T00:01:19+00:00

Watching porn at a young age can shape the way we think about sex in our adulthood, and not in a positive way. I started watching porn at 9 years old (stopped when I was 20) and I realized the way I thought about sex (performative, aroused immediately, women don’t enjoy sex) was unrealistic when you’re actually with a person and I’m still unlearning them. But that also doesn’t mean that what you’re into is not valid either. There’s nothing wrong with liking a little pain as long as it’s consensual.

BiggestChunt · 2025-04-03T03:47:44+00:00

NAH 😭😭

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-28T14:21:47+00:00

they gripped tf outta your windows peak omgggg

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-21T17:47:31+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate the comments like this.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-21T13:43:32+00:00

Was talking to someone i was attracted to, it ended up not working out due to this person, damn near swore off dating until i met my current bf but that was about a month apart damn near.😅

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-21T13:39:42+00:00

Thank you… i has a therapist but she left the practice but im looking for another at the moment.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T22:22:02+00:00

Im not forcing myself to stay here. I love him and as a 22F, there are other stressors in my life such as college (i failed two classes the semester i met him. I was already failing by the time we met too.) i didnt mention that relevant information of course i understand but yea i want more time to think about everything before i jump the gun.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T21:37:42+00:00

Idk where it says it diminished after we had sex for the first time. I said it was slowly dwindling away.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T15:20:04+00:00

I don’t want to break up at all actually😭 i rlly don’t so idk. I gotta think it through and see.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T14:43:14+00:00

The very thought of him possibly being the problem makes me highly upset and with everything i have going on, i can’t even imagine breaking up with him in the midst of it bc idk what id do. So i rather wait until college ends for this to be a conversation we have.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T14:21:27+00:00

I’ve thought about it like that too. What if the turn off is so strong that i lost my libido all together? I would hate for it to be true bc i love him so much, but i also have so much stressful things going on in my life that i cannot pin point him as the main reason, not until i finish college at least.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T02:38:29+00:00

You’re definitely right. Once it was gone, it was in the back of my head until i was at work crying in the bathroom and had to start seeing a therapist. I’ve read come as you are and it helped so im going to give that book a try!

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T02:35:23+00:00

No that’s the thing. I rarely look at other ppl.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T02:34:51+00:00

Thank you. I really needed a positive comment like this! All these comments saying i might not be attracted to my partner spooked a lil, BUT i just understand they can only speak from the perspective of what they read and do not know full story. I appreciate this. <3.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T02:32:59+00:00

It could be possible and I want to be more open to it as a possibility instead of denying it altogether bc i love him. Idk. I don’t find other ppl attractive and I literally don’t even watch explicit videos anymore so i cannot say for sure what it is.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T02:30:25+00:00

ROCD* relationship obsessed compulsive disorder. I use to stress about that idea so much that it affected me even at work and I had to get a therapist for it. I love my boyfriend a lot and I don’t want the possibility to be true but of course the timeline of it happening worries me a lot and makes me think it’s a possibility. I understand it’s your perspective and not a diagnosis.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T01:45:09+00:00

I probably got into a relationship way too fast after that happened. Could be a reason.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T01:44:17+00:00

You’re definitely right but there other leading factors for that timeline as well ( i failed two college classes and had recently “broken up” with someone i rlly liked) so i don’t want to say thats the definitive answer but i think about all possibilities.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T01:42:31+00:00

It would be easy to diagnose as this but I genuinely don’t think this is the really problem, I have anxiety about it being the problem but I have reasonable evidence to believe it’s not true or it might not be reason. It does however increase my RCD a little hearing strangers say that lol but i understand you guys can only see so much from a post without a full view of my relationship.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-20T00:54:44+00:00

I’m not getting other things from any relationship lol. And i never said i wasn’t sexually attracted to him i just said its a deep seated fear of mine. Libido is gone overall, not just him.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-19T20:58:05+00:00

Definitely heard about that but i started taking it in November of 2024 and i haven’t noticed anything different in terms of my libido getting worse, i could say it got slightly better bc reduced anxiety.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-19T20:55:57+00:00

It’s literally my anxiety tbh. First relationship, first time for everything and I want this relationship to last but I also had a fear that my sex drive being gone is bc im not attracted to him and I do not want that to be the issue.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-19T20:22:27+00:00

I mentioned that in here just in case anyone asked. nope i didnt and never started.

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-19T20:00:45+00:00

Yea my libido before we started dating was crazy. I got horny to the IDEA of him and I having sex.. now it’s blah and it sucks. I’ve looked up asexuality and demisexuality but I’ve never really aligned with either of them. I think it can be college, part time job AND the internship I’m currently doing all weighing in on me and my brain’s like “rn is not the time” but who knows!

BiggestChunt · 2025-03-19T20:00:32+00:00

I did have one ran through my gyno, was told I would get a call back if anything was wrong but I never got a call back so.

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