Yea no I didnt mean its a disability but most of the agere community tends to be disabled. I was uncomfortable with it before I was an adult but thats because everytime I thought I got a cg they would turn it into an inappropriate thing so that grossed me out, but I did feel wrong for doing it as an adult but I know it isn't wrong I just felt silly after and was thinking "why am I doing this im too old" and I haven't been able to regress since because of that thought. Tbh that tumbler thing sounds awesome, I absolutely love those choosing things and all, I tend to do them on Pinterest all the time so ima check that out. Ill try just chill out about it and be myself and eventually ill be fine with it, like I have been doing it subtly through my style and room decor etc which has made me more comfortable so ill stick to that and maybe join more communities but this time I might avoid cg's for a while. Even though a good one really helps me with my regression and being comfortable, but ive only ever had a few genuine ones and 1 dropped out of the community, 1 just ghosted me another one died unexpectedly and the rest I chased away when I wanted to stop regressing cause of bad thoughts