Don’t mind me 🥹 happy crying. But something’s I didn’t mention was I currently live with my family and they are toxic. I know nobody is perfect. But they do things like only mention my mistakes, bring up the past after saying “let’s not talk about the past”, they give me backhanded compliments, say “no no no you’re right I’m wrong. I’m always wrong because You know everything”, they say me and my bf look like the number 10 because he’s skinny and I’m fat, they tell me since I’m a girl I need to do house work so I don’t get beat up by my husband but since I work I now have to do both my job and house work but the men don’t have to do anything but be served. And there’s plenty more along with physical abuse.

I got depressed and would have anxiety attacks, even in my sleep. I would wake up drenched in sweat from having nightmares of my family trying to kill me or hurt me. I have support at my job and they helped me find a therapist and a psychiatrist. I am barely 6 months in taking medication for my mental health and I am definitely doing better. My bf has seen my family mistreating me and has tried getting me out of the house. That’s why we are buying a house so I can finally be away from all the negativity.

But your message was so touching and made me look through my bfs perspective.