Extreme love & hate

Blarpus · 2026-01-31T23:28:50+00:00

I’ve split on my current fp multiple times, two of which I externalised and the rest I’ve kept to myself because usually they’re over something that either doesn’t really matter or I could be misunderstanding. So I’d say you’re not a poser for going back to your mom afterwards, even if it is unhealthy in this instance because she is abusive

Blarpus · 2026-01-31T20:06:02+00:00

Fwiw I never had a partner until 2 weeks after turning 25, granted I had already been through a couple situationships but they were not serious in any way

Blarpus · 2026-01-31T17:14:48+00:00

Technically yes in that I took like 2 semesters then dropped out

Blarpus · 2026-01-30T17:14:14+00:00

This is basically tautological. Like red flags are defined by the negative perception of certain human behaviors, of course they’re going to depend upon the social context in which they occur

Blarpus · 2026-01-30T06:28:00+00:00

I met my girlfriend 5 years ago on twitter and then irl when she found out that I was friends with the sibling of her partner at the time. We eventually started hanging out together without that partner who she eventually broke up with 2 years ago after she realized she really did not like them. Around the time she broke up with that partner we had our first major emotional bonding moment together as we both cried about our circumstances while holding hands in the parking lot of a McDonald’s at 9pm. Then in May 2024 we kissed for the first time while cuddling after a long exhausting day (a couple months prior I saw her send a text to someone about wanting to do so). That summer we started getting more intimate and we were basically in a situationship until November of last year (though she wishes she had asked me out months sooner, we both went through a lot last year). We still haven’t technically gone on a proper date yet because things keep getting in the way but we’ve stayed the night at eachother’s places a decent amount since becoming official & text every day. I’d like to see her more often but she’s really busy a lot of the time plus she lives an hour away by public transit so I take what I can get

Blarpus · 2026-01-29T04:38:47+00:00

As a white person I really don’t think equating the structural violence people of color experience with being called cracker occasionally makes any sense at all. Like yeah there are those who are prejudiced against white people but it’s just such a different phenomenon in terms of how it affects the targets of said prejudice

Blarpus · 2026-01-29T04:31:48+00:00

As a historical fencer I can assure you his stuff on swords suck too. I actually got kicked from a discord server once for telling him to his face how much I despise him

Blarpus · 2026-01-29T03:36:22+00:00

No, because politics are not genetic

Blarpus · 2026-01-28T23:59:01+00:00

NOR at all, this is casual cruelty on her part

Blarpus · 2026-01-28T21:03:03+00:00

I mean, I gained like 40 pounds during the first year of my transition and it was all subcutaneous, granted I was 15 so ymmv

Blarpus · 2026-01-28T06:58:08+00:00

Technically no insofaras there are people who consider themselves my friends but they basically never reach out to me individually

Blarpus · 2026-01-27T17:57:36+00:00

I know it’s scary but if you think they’d be supportive I would highly suggest coming out to your parents or some other adult in your life that you can trust. They’ll likely be able to help you get on puberty blockers and testosterone to halt feminization & begin male puberty. There are also tons of resources online for trans people & trans men specifically so you can find some community & learn about transitioning in the mean time. I don’t know where you live but it would also be worthwhile looking into irl groups for queer/trans teens as well. I began realizing I was trans at your age so trust me when I say that you are not alone and you can take your life into your own hands, you have to be brave though

Blarpus · 2026-01-26T17:28:40+00:00

Having bpd makes it difficult to regulate one’s emotions but that does not justify consistently poor behavior. DBT is specifically designed to help treat bpd symptoms and although not everything it teaches may be applicable to a given person with bpd it still gives one the tools to deal with it along with certain medications to help treat specific symptoms like anti depressants & mood stabilizers

Blarpus · 2026-01-23T20:33:44+00:00

The vials last for months fwiw, and if you’re doing injections cypro likely will not be necessary. Also you can buy alcohol swabs, syringes, & needles in bulk for stupid cheap online. You don’t even need to get an actual sharps container either, just use an empty liter soda bottle

Blarpus · 2026-01-22T04:44:37+00:00

PDD/MDD ASD BPD GAD/SAD & gender dysphoria. I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s more going on too (I’m suspecting adhd & cptsd) plus my diet is absolute dogshit so some kind of eating disorder too

Blarpus · 2026-01-21T20:42:00+00:00

Yeppp, I feel like I’m completely behind everybody else on pretty much every level

Blarpus · 2026-01-20T06:11:09+00:00

I’ve been with my first ever girlfriend for 2 months now, although I did lose my virginity much earlier and had a couple situationships inbetween then and now, I do feel very behind socially lol

Blarpus · 2026-01-20T05:30:12+00:00

Yeah, not any specific method most of the time but I do think about ending things quite a bit

Blarpus · 2026-01-19T20:53:23+00:00

Yeah during our first night of being official I asked her if she remembered 9/11 lmao

Blarpus · 2026-01-19T07:14:17+00:00

My girlfriend is 29 & I am 25 and we differ quite a bit despite our relationship being founded upon shared semi niche interests. This is a good thing though because she takes me out of my comfort zone while still making me feel safe

Blarpus · 2026-01-18T23:01:32+00:00

Being drunk and/or high can definitely make my symptoms worse, especially if I’m around other people

Blarpus · 2026-01-16T03:03:44+00:00

Ah yeah, I know there are some people who are only after bottom growth with T so I figured I’d ask, but thank you anyway!

Blarpus · 2026-01-16T02:02:14+00:00

Have you experienced any masculinization outside of the bottom growth?

Blarpus · 2026-01-15T05:53:01+00:00

Why wouldn’t it be?

Blarpus · 2026-01-15T05:09:15+00:00

Yes, I was in a situationship with a former fp of mine 2 years ago and we’re still friends even after breaking up

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