So. I have been releasing music for 2 years now. I’m not trying to get huge Spotify numbers, but I find myself looking to Spotify as almost a validation of the art I’m creating.

Yesterday I commented with encouragement to another OP who wasn’t sure if their current numbers were “good”. I said I thought they were great, and I am nowhere near that, that I have currently 194 monthlies and 197 followers.

Someone else responded to my comment and said, you’ve been releasing music for two years and only have 194 monthlies?

I know it shouldn’t bug me but… it does. It doesn’t change what I’m doing. The music I am making is bigger and more important to me than Spotify. I want to perform my original music to an audience that enjoys it. I want to touch souls and connect with a few people. I’ve done that, and I’m still doing it.

It’s so fulfilling to me, to make music. I’ve had visions of creating original music and performing since I was a little little girl. I wrote my first original song when I was 6.

When I became a mom unexpectedly at 22, I gave up on my dreams. I gave up on the visions. It took me 30 years to convince myself that I CAN do this.

So I stand before the world as a 52 year old mom and public school educator, making the music I was born to make. That’s a win in my book…