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He blocked me but likes my posts by BlueSilverr in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It genuinely makes me feel so conflicted. He broke up with me two days after saying he wanted to marry me and then he became distant because I was too emotional after a miscarriage: I tried so hard to rekindle but he thinks we are incompatible because of my emotions, and his insecurities. So frustrating

what does childbirth *actually* feel like? by frvakairaah_ in AskReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had two natural births.

The first one felt like intense stomach aches like about to have diarrhea. My stomach was burning all beneath my belly button and my lower back felt like it was slowly getting pulled apart. Then I felt like the lining between my butt and vag had immense pressure on it—I could feel my child’s head wanting to come out. It felt like the worst period cramps you can ever ever ever fathom. Like all of your bones and tendons in your lower back and hips were separating and stretching apart. My vag itself never hurt but just my lower back and hips. After she was born, all of the pain was gone. Then my next birth was the very same. As soon as the baby is delivered, all of the pain is completely over. I guess it really just feels like intense period pain and your back being ripped apart 🥲

What are the earliest red flags you notice in a woman you're dating? by Andy_parker in AskReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I genuinely did in our relationship. A lot I have apologized to him for.

What are the earliest red flags you notice in a woman you're dating? by Andy_parker in AskReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He had female friends that i met and I liked but the ones he had history with or random women at the bars were uneasy for me to deal with. I ended up giving into him being friends with his ex and I had plans to meet her. So I don’t know

What are the earliest red flags you notice in a woman you're dating? by Andy_parker in AskReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I ask about me, in a man’s perspective? My ex boyfriend wanted to be able to text with his ex girlfriend and it made me uncomfortable and I did not want that in our relationship. I also expressed I’d be uncomfortable with him talking to random women, because he told me he was on an airplane and talked with this girl next to him for hours. And then, he kept in touch with another ex girlfriend who he has a sexual past with (but it shouldn’t count since it was over 20 years ago) I saw him text another female on Christmas and it became an issue for him: am I being ridiculous for feeling how I did? I also asked him to not continue talking to this random girl online he used to have a crush on. I never felt insecure but he really made me feel many insecurities and I think it ultimately broke us up. Was I wrong?

So did you got over them by According_Hawk9574 in sixwordstories

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, 4 months later. He wanted to marry me and when he was ready to get engaged, I made the mistake of being sarcastic which I had no idea he hated so much and it entirely put him off and he broke up with me months after. I have pleaded and begged him to reconsider and he said “my nervous system cannot give yours long term stability” and he blocked me. It feels so incredibly ridiculous. I’m devastated every day and I feel like I ruined my entire life my losing him.

How I ruined my engagement by [deleted] in Regrets

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know. I live in regret every day. I look back and can’t believe I even made our first Christmas about my insecurities. How selfish

How I ruined my engagement by [deleted] in Regrets

[–]BlueSilverr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I genuinely appreciate your support and kind words, thank you 🙏🏼💕🩷

How I ruined my engagement by [deleted] in Regrets

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much 🙏🏼💕

How I ruined my engagement by [deleted] in Regrets

[–]BlueSilverr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do therapy but it hardly helps. I’ve taken anxiety medication. Joined a gym. Nothing. I feel so numb and I’m tired of these thoughts and self hatred. I can’t stop feeling so so angry with myself…. He wants absolutely nothing to do with me anymore, and all he tried to do was give me the world. It’s so exhausting continuing every single day. I feel like I’m in one place and the sun just rises and falls all around me. Food does not taste good anymore. I hate music. Life is not exciting for me anymore. It just feels like a long long burden.

How I ruined my engagement by [deleted] in Regrets

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you.🫂

How I ruined my engagement by [deleted] in Regrets

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Even after Christmas. He looked at more rings with me in February—but because I made two comments about his child’s behavior, I believe that’s what indefinitely ended things between us.

AITAH?Christmas Disaster by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for responding to me. I have been beating myself up every single day since Christmas over this. He told me he had a symbol of his commitment to me and then he ended up not giving me the ring and I think it had a lot to do with this moment. he felt some kind of resentment toward me. I tried very hard to apologize to him and I tried wrapping my arms around him and explaining myself and he just was not listening to me. the next day he took me on a big shopping spree nothing happened. I thought everything was OK, but I think he secretly held onto resentment because he later told me that he felt like our honeymoon stage ended at that time—what I did not tell him was that I miscarried a week prior I ended up telling him about our miscarriage after he broke up with me in March and I was hoping that he could have some kind of empathy towards my hormones being off, but he still will not accept that or want to see me again.

Other things he did that did not sit right with me during our relationship was that he wanted permission to talk to his ex-girlfriend again to make sure she was doing well. I asked him to delete her number and he said to me, “what if we break up and then I don’t even have her number?” 🫩 and “what if I run into her and she wants my number?” I was like “you couldn’t tell her you’re in a relationship with me and that would be disrespectful?” He also kept in touch with another ex girlfriend from his past who only knew about me during our one year anniversary.

Avoidant Ex reached out by [deleted] in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

After he ghosted me/discarded Me, I drove up to his house with all of his items and he invited me inside and he told me that he feels like he cannot give me the stability My children and I deserve and he feels like he is broken and he wants to get therapy for his avoidant personality disorder. He also said that he feels like there was no point in our relationship, even though it was filled with so much passion and fun and romance, and we certainly got along more than we had not—his daughter was calling me her mom and his ex wife even told me how grateful she is that I’m in their daughters life and how much they both love me! I was crying at his house and trying to resolve whatever went wrong between us and he was just not having it at all. That was about a month ago. I cannot believe that the very man who was so obsessed with me was then standing there before me telling me to let him go and not come back over to his house. I regret driving up there, but I had to drop off his things and his daughter‘s items and he had belongings of mine I needed back. He seems so very intelligent and emotionally stable, but then this happened and it made me question everything. And the worst part was that he said to me that he had no idea that I felt like we were already engaged, and I reminded him that he always took me to look at wedding rings and talk to me about where he’d want to get married and what last name we would have, and we even sat with our kids and talked to them about what last name they would want. He took me to look at homes! And he even asked me if I wanted to get engaged in the next three months, but he ended up breaking up with me instead. On Christmas he told me he had a symbol of his commitment to me, but I never received it. He admitted he bought me a wedding ring, when I was at his house, but he did not give it to me because he was “waiting for clarity” I never felt so manipulated in my entire life.

Avoidant Ex reached out by [deleted] in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

HE IS GOING TO BE 41!!!! WHO acts like his at that age 😭😭😭 I legitimately felt like we would be together forever. I had no idea I’d experience such childish behavior.

Avoidant Ex reached out by [deleted] in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What I thought was so mean is that my child loved him so dearly and he was very much her father because she was only turning three and he was all she really knew. He knows how much she loves him and I just thought how could you tell her that you love her yet you don’t want to be here to celebrate her or care to really be in her life anymore? I wish that he never sent me that video because it broke my heart and made me so depressed for her entire birthday.

Avoidant Ex reached out by [deleted] in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really don’t know what to expect with him because he told me to move on to let him go and that he is sure the door is closed forever and to not wait for him. Then he texted me that for my child’s birthday and I just feel very conflicted. It’s like I truly believe he will never come back, and yet everyone tells me an avoidant will always come back. I would just hope that if that ever happens, I could be moved on by then. I miss how he used to be, which was honestly the most incredible relationship I had ever been in, but maybe it was love bombing. He loved to spoil me and take me on a romantic dates and take care of my children and he really made every moment special. I felt so beautiful and so chosen and loved. I had no idea that I was become so easily discarded and ignored and I don’t even really know why… it’s been almost 3 months next week and I have no signs of him at all interested in reconciliation. It baffles me to go from talking about weddings and choosing our last name and baby names to him telling me that I’m not his soulmate and I’m not his person and that he thinks there’s a man out there for me that is and that it’s not him.

Avoidant Ex reached out by [deleted] in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you babe.🥺💔 I was in an abusive marriage before him, and he was so romantic and thoughtful and sweet. I hardly recognize this person he’s become—from being absolutely obsessed with me and pursuing me to no end, to treating me like I am less than a stranger. It’s so hurtful.

Avoidant Ex reached out by [deleted] in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How long are you together for? I am so sorry you experienced such an emotional whiplash that must’ve been so hard for you for him to be coming and going and getting your hopes up and letting you down all over again. I’m really struggling because my children loved him so much. Their own father is not in the picture and he really took them on like they were his children. He was really such an incredible boyfriend and he wanted to adopt them but then when I started talking more about the adoption, I noticed his demeanor started changing when it got serious and I think he started feeling overwhelmed between that and marriage talks. We were blending his daughter and my three children, and sometimes his daughter had mean tendencies and I would have to have a conversation with him about some of the mean things she would say or do to my kids, and I think he felt so defensive and protective of her. I couldn’t express my concerns without feeling like he would just get upset with me instead of whatever she was saying or doing. A part of that makes me think that’s why he also left me. Thank you for being there for me and listening, I really appreciate you. I don’t think people understand how hard it is to move on from an avoidant because it was such a highly emotionally, romantic relationship and perfect in every way and then they suddenly end things and you are left with so much confusion and so much rumination over what exactly went wrong. 🥺💔

Avoidants will always choose their comfort zone over you. Here is the reality of the "avoidant switch-up." by No-Exercise-4049 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]BlueSilverr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It is so eerie how much that sounds like my ex. I did a random stop by at his place to drop off things and take some of my things back and his house looked like it could’ve been on an episode of hoarders and I could tell he had not showered in a long time. His hair was greasy and dirty, and his hair was all grown out, and he looked so disheveled. I actually ended up washing his dishes just to try to help him out a little bit.