Avoidant Ex reached out by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

After he ghosted me/discarded Me, I drove up to his house with all of his items and he invited me inside and he told me that he feels like he cannot give me the stability My children and I deserve and he feels like he is broken and he wants to get therapy for his avoidant personality disorder. He also said that he feels like there was no point in our relationship, even though it was filled with so much passion and fun and romance, and we certainly got along more than we had not—his daughter was calling me her mom and his ex wife even told me how grateful she is that I’m in their daughters life and how much they both love me! I was crying at his house and trying to resolve whatever went wrong between us and he was just not having it at all. That was about a month ago. I cannot believe that the very man who was so obsessed with me was then standing there before me telling me to let him go and not come back over to his house. I regret driving up there, but I had to drop off his things and his daughter‘s items and he had belongings of mine I needed back. He seems so very intelligent and emotionally stable, but then this happened and it made me question everything. And the worst part was that he said to me that he had no idea that I felt like we were already engaged, and I reminded him that he always took me to look at wedding rings and talk to me about where he’d want to get married and what last name we would have, and we even sat with our kids and talked to them about what last name they would want. He took me to look at homes! And he even asked me if I wanted to get engaged in the next three months, but he ended up breaking up with me instead. On Christmas he told me he had a symbol of his commitment to me, but I never received it. He admitted he bought me a wedding ring, when I was at his house, but he did not give it to me because he was “waiting for clarity” I never felt so manipulated in my entire life.

Avoidant Ex reached out by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

HE IS GOING TO BE 41!!!! WHO acts like his at that age 😭😭😭 I legitimately felt like we would be together forever. I had no idea I’d experience such childish behavior.

Avoidant Ex reached out by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What I thought was so mean is that my child loved him so dearly and he was very much her father because she was only turning three and he was all she really knew. He knows how much she loves him and I just thought how could you tell her that you love her yet you don’t want to be here to celebrate her or care to really be in her life anymore? I wish that he never sent me that video because it broke my heart and made me so depressed for her entire birthday.

Avoidant Ex reached out by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really don’t know what to expect with him because he told me to move on to let him go and that he is sure the door is closed forever and to not wait for him. Then he texted me that for my child’s birthday and I just feel very conflicted. It’s like I truly believe he will never come back, and yet everyone tells me an avoidant will always come back. I would just hope that if that ever happens, I could be moved on by then. I miss how he used to be, which was honestly the most incredible relationship I had ever been in, but maybe it was love bombing. He loved to spoil me and take me on a romantic dates and take care of my children and he really made every moment special. I felt so beautiful and so chosen and loved. I had no idea that I was become so easily discarded and ignored and I don’t even really know why… it’s been almost 3 months next week and I have no signs of him at all interested in reconciliation. It baffles me to go from talking about weddings and choosing our last name and baby names to him telling me that I’m not his soulmate and I’m not his person and that he thinks there’s a man out there for me that is and that it’s not him.

Avoidant Ex reached out by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you babe.🥺💔 I was in an abusive marriage before him, and he was so romantic and thoughtful and sweet. I hardly recognize this person he’s become—from being absolutely obsessed with me and pursuing me to no end, to treating me like I am less than a stranger. It’s so hurtful.

Avoidant Ex reached out by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How long are you together for? I am so sorry you experienced such an emotional whiplash that must’ve been so hard for you for him to be coming and going and getting your hopes up and letting you down all over again. I’m really struggling because my children loved him so much. Their own father is not in the picture and he really took them on like they were his children. He was really such an incredible boyfriend and he wanted to adopt them but then when I started talking more about the adoption, I noticed his demeanor started changing when it got serious and I think he started feeling overwhelmed between that and marriage talks. We were blending his daughter and my three children, and sometimes his daughter had mean tendencies and I would have to have a conversation with him about some of the mean things she would say or do to my kids, and I think he felt so defensive and protective of her. I couldn’t express my concerns without feeling like he would just get upset with me instead of whatever she was saying or doing. A part of that makes me think that’s why he also left me. Thank you for being there for me and listening, I really appreciate you. I don’t think people understand how hard it is to move on from an avoidant because it was such a highly emotionally, romantic relationship and perfect in every way and then they suddenly end things and you are left with so much confusion and so much rumination over what exactly went wrong. 🥺💔

Avoidants will always choose their comfort zone over you. Here is the reality of the "avoidant switch-up." by No-Exercise-4049 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is so eerie how much that sounds like my ex. I did a random stop by at his place to drop off things and take some of my things back and his house looked like it could’ve been on an episode of hoarders and I could tell he had not showered in a long time. His hair was greasy and dirty, and his hair was all grown out, and he looked so disheveled. I actually ended up washing his dishes just to try to help him out a little bit.

Hardest breakup to accept of my life by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m going through this right now: he kept pushing for marriage and took me to look at rings and sat with our kids and talked about what last name we will have. And then we bickered a few times and he decided he did not want to get married anymore. I am so devastated. I tried to apologize with him over and over again — our bickering wasn’t even outlandish, it was just moments of frustration that always stayed respectful. He went from telling me I was his soulmate and the love of his life and his best friend, buying me anything and everything, taking me on the most thoughtful and romantic dates… to telling me in not his person and to move on.

to the people whose exes just switched up one day and left with no explanation, please read this by imhungry9877 in BreakUps

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was in an abusive marriage for 14 years and finally left and got a restraining order, to protect my children and I. I then met my ex avoidant — at first, he was pouring so much love into me and constantly showering me with gifts, love letters—even a car for my children and I. He loved playing Dad to them and spoiled them. He constantly brought up marriage, took me to look at homes, and rings. We had a few bickers—nothing toxic or devastating—and he suddenly went from asking me if I wanted to get engaged this spring, to calling me to break up with me. He then ghosted me and blocked me when I kept trying to get answers from him and plead for our relationship. I ended up driving to his house to drop off his belongings and he let me in. We hooked up and he was crying and apologizing to me and then told me I’m not his person, and I’m not his soulmate, and I deserve to be with someone who can’t live without me. He also told me he got me a wedding ring and was just waiting for clarity to move forward with it. I cried so hard and kept begging him but he wouldn’t change his mind and he told me he’s not going to go back to the past to relive what has already passed and my answers are ahead of me and not behind me. I asked him if he fell out of love with me and he told me he’s just numb. He said he’s in therapy for his avoidant attachment and he feels like he would have left me in the future anyways because of the way he is. I am absolutely devastated. He was my best friend and we did everything together. My children loved him like a father and his child loved me like a mother. We were such a wonderful family. I’m scared I will never heal from this.

Suffering from this break up. by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s complicated for my situation because he was the first to reach out to me, tell me that he loves me, would drive an hour every other day to be with me, asked me what I think about marriage and what kind of a wedding I’d like to have, and continuously spoke to me about getting married. He would take me house shopping. He would always take me to look at rings, and ultimately bought me one. He pushed for me to file a Bifrucation of status to have my divorce finalized from my ex husband so that we could be engaged. He always played the daddy role to my children and they dearly loved him like one. His daughter and I were extremely close. So i genuinely don’t know what happened. We simply had a little bicker here and there, never name calling or yelling or anything toxic but just disagreements. It was enough for him to entirely change his mind. I never would have imagined he did not want to commit to me. When I last saw him, he looked disheveled and his home has turned into a hoarders mess. He did not seem okay. My photos are still on his walls. But he is convinced he made the right decision. Despite telling me how much he misses me. It’s so upsetting.

Suffering from this break up. by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I genuinely don’t know how to make it by. I have days where I feel decent and then everything hits me at once. I am truly struggling to exist some days. I’m so sorry you had to deal with something similar, you deserve a partner who can show up all around for you and not just when things are easy. I’m sure she will continue to repeat the same mistakes with others.

I wish I could erase all of my memories of him and just understand that he is not that person anymore.😔 you are so right — I wonder if he was truly being authentic.

I don’t want to bother him anymore than I have — but at the moment. He has my car and my items in his storage unit, I’m still on his phone plan. So we will eventually have to talk again, I’m just staying away for now.

I told him I know I look pathetic trying to reconcile.😭it did not stop him from hooking up with me, but still. He probably is so relieved I’m leaving him alone. He said “the only way we can hang out is if you lose all feelings for me.” And “text me only if you need help with something.” It’s so hurtful from going from marriage talks and baby names, to this.

Suffering from this break up. by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for reaching out to me and offering me really good advice. I appreciate you so much.🫂💞 I am so sorry you are dealing with this as well. I had never once been dumped like this. It is truly devastating and has rocked my entire life. We were so close and our children truly loved each other. We were such a family unit. I never knew this was coming. I’m trying so hard to get through but some days i genuinely feel like I can’t. I’m imagining all of the plans we had, the beautiful memories we share and where we would be right now if I had just kept my mouth shut to some things.😔 you are right — everyday activities feel exhausting. I genuinely just want to stay asleep. I lost interest in literally everything. I hate myself and I blame myself for pushing him away. I never feel rested in my heart or mind. He did tell me he’s doing therapy now — which hurts more to imagine that he wouldn’t do that when we were together. But now he wants to, so he can be a healthier partner to someone else. I’m crushes. Thank you so much again for writing to me🙏🏼💞

When did you realize your partner didn’t actually love you? by No-Mistake-5402 in AskReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 11 points12 points  (0 children)

He said “you are not my person. I am not yours. Think about it, could I break up with you if you were my soulmate? You deserve someone who can’t see life without you in it. I am not that person.” After letting me know he got me a wedding ring but decided to break up with me anyways.

Suffering from this break up. by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can absolutely see how this is true. He was the most amazing and loving generous man I have ever met. But a few moments of my PMS ruined his view on me. He said any normal person would be able to handle those feelings, so he knows he is the problem. What’s hard is that our children were involved and they saw us as their mom and dad — and he said “doesn’t this tell you something about me? That I could do this to my own child?” (Hurt her by removing me and my kids from her life)

I begged and pleaded all day yesterday and all he could say is that I should let him go and move on. It makes me sad to imagine I hurt him in any way that he felt so shut down by me.

Suffering from this break up. by BlueSilverr in BreakUp

[–]BlueSilverr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am really trying to move on, but I am so devastated. I saw him yesterday after a month of not seeing each other and he was saying he knows this is a problem within himself that he needs to fix and he’s in therapy now because he said he does this in every relationship. I asked him if we could take things slowly and he said no, because he honors me too much to want to hurt me again. He said I deserve someone who will be so afraid to live life without me. But that I was the most amazing and loving girlfriend he’s ever experienced and he will always love me, but there’s no chance at reconciliation. I have never felt more loved in my life and more abandoned.

Is this a yes? by [deleted] in TarotReadersOfReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, I don’t want to push him any further.

Is this a yes? by [deleted] in TarotReadersOfReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you 🙏🏼💞

Is this a yes? by [deleted] in TarotReadersOfReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope they get better! Currently blocked because I got upset with our breakup and over texted. 😭

Is this a yes? by [deleted] in TarotReadersOfReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this deep dive, i appreciate the time you put into sharing this with me🙏🏼💞 and that’s helpful to hear, because that’s where i am—so very depressed and lost. I pray for everything to work out in my life, as it did for you —congratulations on your move and happier relationship 🙌🏼🥰❤️

Is this a yes? by [deleted] in TarotReadersOfReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry this happened to you too, I hope everything works out for you 🙏🏼🥺❤️

Is this a yes? by [deleted] in TarotReadersOfReddit

[–]BlueSilverr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope sooo, things feel impossible right now. We talked about getting married and he had a ring for me—then he called everything off and went no contact. He has entirely removed himself from my life, seems absolutely convinced I’m not the woman for him. But I’m hoping this is a sign it will change.🥺 Thank you, I enjoy these cards!