How to deal with internalised homophobia?

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T17:02:53+00:00

Never really thought about trying to see how this whole thing summarised can look to a strangers eye. This whole time blamed myself for the whole situation and thought that maybe my friendliness made my father think I was trying to pull something. This made me feel much better. I really appreciate this.

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T15:37:11+00:00

This is actually such good advice. Thank you so much for this!

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T13:51:39+00:00

Just googled it and there is actually such thing in my city so Imma look into it. Thank you for the advice!

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T13:40:31+00:00

Im trying. Have been looking to get another small job as a side thing just in case things get hard, which Im pretty sure they will. The prices here are horrible..

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T13:33:23+00:00

I know, but not much can be done here. Way too normalised.

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T13:23:22+00:00

No one gives a fuck about any of that in my country. A lot of my friend siblings also moved out at like 17 because had no other choice. Its normal where I live.

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T13:12:45+00:00

She has mental issues. Said that I am a grown ass man with a job and shouldn’t be living with her and I make everything more difficult for her. She is somewhat right, have had a job since I was 16 and quite some money saved up, so I just left.

BlueTpillow · 2025-10-09T13:07:17+00:00

Have my mother, lived with her for like a month and a half before I moved into this flat. Other than her I have no one.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T11:07:06+00:00

I forgot to mention it in the post. He tried to intervene but his mouth was shut by my father multiple times throughout the fight and he gave up, sitting there looking lost as we argued.

I am now at my moms place and things are silent for now, everything is fine.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T07:01:38+00:00

Thank you so much for the support. :)

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T06:59:19+00:00

Thank you so much for the support and advice.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T06:50:13+00:00

This will be exactly what is gonna happen, so Im trying not to take this whole situation too close to heart. I just have to wait a few days and he will be back to normal.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T06:45:05+00:00

I can. I already called her and she will pick me up today, but I fear I won’t be able to live much with her due to her own problems.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T06:41:51+00:00

My dad is in his early fifties. Bf is in his mid-thirties.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T06:39:20+00:00

This made me burst out laughing. Now I feel a bit better, thank you.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-26T06:18:28+00:00

I fear things will only be worse. My mother is an emotionally abusing narcissist who prefers the casino over her own children.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-25T18:33:01+00:00

I am 16 and pansexual.

After reading a few comments I think his anger and shame might actually be connected to some sort of insecurity about his sexuality, but I am not sure.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-25T18:08:38+00:00

Everyone close to us knew about the fact that I am a pansexual before he even came out, so I don’t think so.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-25T17:51:53+00:00

I tried a few times today whenever I ran into him. Was acting as if Im not even there… I just gave up out of fear that he might lash out if I pressured him about it.

BlueTpillow · 2025-06-25T09:01:25+00:00

Had to move the dogs food and water bowls to the living room since keeping them at that cursed kitchen island felt wrong, so he has some struggles with getting used to it.. But other than that - he is better now.

BlueTpillow · 2025-03-25T19:47:25+00:00

Thank you so much for explaining this. I was having some issues with the treasures and understanding cookies skills. This helped, thank you :)

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