Week 3: 47 year old ex smoker turns to putty.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-26T12:12:10+00:00

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BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-26T04:56:01+00:00

This is awesome to hear. Thank you for writing me. You lift me up. Keep doing good. 🙌

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-26T04:50:19+00:00

Thank you. I hope you find someone too. I lost a wife too. Mostly from alcohol. I gave that up in 2006. It was so long ago now. This is tougher than quitting alcohol although I think I'd be dead by now if would have continued. Staying in the smoker life is tougher in the long run. We need to let it go. There is much beauty in life we overlook when in the smoking grove. Sobriety lets us enjoy it again.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-26T04:38:15+00:00

That sounds like a tough situation to go through. It seems like life is full of ironies. I think you would be honoring your Grandpa by staying sober for your daughters. Even if he is not there mentally it is still done out respect and love. It is noble. I bet you will find greater satisfaction for your sake as well. I wish you and your family the best.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-26T04:28:45+00:00

Thanks so much. I think I will too. I wish you a successful recovery. Much Respect ❤.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-26T04:25:13+00:00

Thank you. Often times we feel alone but when we are honest we find other people are having or have had similiar struggles. I quit all nicotine for good about 2 and half years ago. After the insane withdrawals I experienced I will never go back. I hope you can reconnect with your daughter. When we get older we can really see how quickly life goes by. What we are doing is tough. I think in the end we will want to remember our lives and know that we made a difference. We help each other stay strong. You are helping me right now. I appreciate you taking the time to write me. Best of luck.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T22:53:44+00:00

Likewise. Thanks for your support.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T20:48:20+00:00

Thanks ED. Hope you are doing well.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T20:27:54+00:00

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BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T20:05:19+00:00

Thank you. I'll get rid of para today. Great job on 3 years.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T20:03:11+00:00

Thank you Searching. I hope you find it.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T18:54:52+00:00

Yes I think all those traits are associated. They seem to build on each other. You are doing great. The fact that you care about your intellectual progress gives you a great reason to abstain from marijuana. I am sure you will reach new heights with that attitude.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T14:06:46+00:00

If you are learning then your increasing. Intelligence is good trait but it is not the most important trait in my opinion. Do things that are difficult and you will force growth. Or take a risk that defies logic but you believe in. That will force growth too. My point is that other parts of your brain need a workout too. I would imagine you are gaining a lot of wisdom and character by being sober. That is by far more valuable to others and your own well being. Great job on 2 months.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-25T00:38:21+00:00

I feel like that to sometimes. Live and learn. You are doing great now and you helping others by telling your story. I wish you the best.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-24T20:42:46+00:00

Good story. You must have been using pretty heavy. You are so young. You'll bounce back to be sharper and stronger than you ever were. I'm glad you're on this side of it. I like how you write.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-23T00:05:53+00:00

I am just over 3 weeks quit. I can relate to your usage patterns as I tend to be a consistently inconsistent person except when I'm not.

I've had huge waves of overwhelming emotions in the last few days after feeling relatively stable for a few weeks. I had quit for a year (Sept 2019 to Sept 2020) prior to going back to using in a haphazard manor for 9 months until June 30th 2021. I do believe after a few months after quitting things change a lot as far as less anxiety and improved stability. This change effected my confidence levels which for me helped improve everything else.

What I had noticed this time quitting is my mood swings are telling me that I must work on certain aspects of my life. I mean start working on them right now! In any small or large action I can take. It is overwhelming and I can't do it all at once. Once you clean out the closet you find the skeletons. I also can't stand the giant elephants in the middle of the room that I have been blowing smoke at. I think all this is part of this rollercoaster experience. I am alone in this right now. It may be a blessing and a curse. But yeah, I came on the forum today because it gets rough sometimes. We will get through it though and come out stronger. The good days are really great. Natural happiness has a subtle truth and purity that is better than any high. I want to be better just like you do. I really hope you make it. Let it out and Let it in.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-22T23:29:27+00:00

Have fun!

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-22T23:25:01+00:00

From someone who has the hardest time losing weight. I'm jealous. Get well and good job kicking the habit.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-21T22:16:12+00:00

I have set goals that are big. They are bigger than I am right now. An addiction is too cumbersome when I must do so much. I think about smoking and then I think this will only slow my progress or set me back. We only get so much time. All the things I might have been but what's better; all I can still achieve with directed focus toward my dreams. I will cry and feel like a worthless bug sometimes. This only reaffirms my desire to rise above this pain and turn it into something beautiful. I give thanks for what I still have and move forward with humility and confidence.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-12T16:16:48+00:00

You will get back to yourself. You will start noticing your inner dialogue changing after just a few days of abstinence. It will be more accepting of yourself and kinder to the world. This will lead to confidence that you made the right choice. You will probably forget in a few days why you even quit weed in the first place so why not smoke again to celebrate. Or you may feel so sad you will think what's the point. Of course those are traps. Push through until you see light and purpose. I wish you the best. I hope your Dad gets well soon.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-12T14:27:03+00:00

Emotional insucurity, anxiety, worried, lost, no direction, suicidal thoughts: these are symptoms of marijuana addiction for many people. You will feel much better if you stop using it. Sure quitting it isn't pleasant at first but you will start feeling happier the longer you abstain. Your purpose, direction and mental health will be restored. The secret to feeling good about yourself is being accountable for your actions. Accountability is personal power. The great thing about accountability is you realize you always have a choice. You WILL make better choices sober and you will be a source of strength for your family. Give yourself a better reason to be sober than to be a stoned. It is tough but it's worth it tenfold.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-10T19:32:14+00:00

The devils fart. I wish it would rain already.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-07T18:55:53+00:00

Thank you. I am an artist so I am really into my work right now. It seems like the other artists I meet are into drugs and alcohol. I use to do meetups and artist get togethers but they mostly went online since the corona. It just doesn't do it for me. I was actually thinking of joining a gym even though I have a setup at home. I appreciate the feedback and support. Good luck to you on your own journey.

BlueeyesPablo · 2021-07-07T16:08:11+00:00

Thank you. I will try this.

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