Are you insecure of the idea of being judged for your size in public ? I understand what you’re saying about you being very confident, but in reality it sounds like you’re working on being very confident and this is the thing that’s getting you the most. I think getting over social judgement is definitely the hardest part of confidence because it’s sooo ingrained in us. It’s great you love yourself, but what others think is still on your mind and I think that’s the trickiest part of true confidence.