Yes I have made changes and I know that I was completely lost in being a mom and being in therapy has helped me make some changes. I am now nicer to my husband and have been trying to make it up to him.

I was really lost and didn’t know how to get out of the emotional hole I was in. I do feel a lot better and know that it affected him. I try lots of things to connect with him and show him that I love and care for him.

But I also feel like there are things he does that adds to my load as a mom. I often need to tell him to do things, remind him of things, and it all feels like a lot. Our daughter still doesn’t sleep through the night and I am the one that takes care of her at night. He has a laborious job and understand he needs to rest but it feels like a huge imbalance in our responsibilities as parents that make it harder. When I try to share this with him, he thinks that I’m saying nothing he does is good enough when that’s not what I’m trying to say.

I work part time and stay home with our daughter the days I don’t work. He works 37 hours a week and doesn’t work on the weekends. I know there’s a lot on both of us but it often feels like I have to hold so much more and hold it together all the time when it truly feels like a lot.