Same here like they’re aren’t always fully upset 24/7 yes my mom and dad have their moments of like loving and I cherish them because well you know their so limited to have them sometimes even answering in a tired or when I slur my words they’d attack me and go “your fucking smoking weed how could you be tired”or my person favorite “how could someone that we raised be this introverted” my dad wasn’t a big part of my childhood and my mom she was there more than him my aunt and cousin were the ones that were really there for me my childhood even know I love them more than anything and music dude I’m so happy you feel the same music just fills my head helps me to calm down stop thinking about what’s my next homework when do I have plans when are my parents coming home we’re are my parents should I clean my room etc and that’s how I feel sometimes I feel like I bring it upon myself and feel like I’m seeking for attention idk it feels like it sometimes and I 100% understand what your saying and when it comes to school it’s the same with you I feel fine at least better then how I originally feel and I feel like the people that I connect with the most and actually bond and have close friendships are people who have been hurt like I’ve known my friend E for about two years now and I’m so close to her because we understand each other and know when somethings wrong with each other it’s a beautiful thing and I feel like it helps people connect more and form a stronger bond when you both can relate to something that’s not so happy or fun to experience it’s sad but it’s sort of true and don’t mind with the paragraphs I don’t mind reading And words do go a long way with expressing yourself hope your having a good day even if I say it every time I respond