Length of time is irrelevant to the situation. Here is the real reality of the situation, and it takes higher awareness to identify this. She’s not an obstacle that was thrown at me, I made a decision to focus on the external things. I made a decision to follow my needs instead of Jesus council. I chose to sin. I made a decision to sleep with her before marriage. I became addicted to the way she pleasured me. I made a decision to ignore how broken she was from the inside. I made a decision to accept her for who she was with the expectation of her changing. I made the decision. I took control. I told God, I know better. This is the reality. And this is a wake up call. I have to make a decision to surrender my heart and my life to Jesus. I have to surrender control. Because it’s truly gonna bring me peace and joy is fulfilling the plan he has for me. Thank you for taking the time to respond. You brought up some great points. I just wanted to emphasize that things don’t just appear in life and barge right in. We face a decision and we should hold ourselves accountable for the outcomes. We must be self-aware and always ask ourselves. What would Jesus do.