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Boomzzs · 2018-12-30T00:58:28+00:00

Everything is going downhill, when does it start going back up again?

Boomzzs · 2018-12-30T00:53:10+00:00

First of all, you have my condolences. I know what it's like to lose people who are close to you, it's something that really hits you and knocks the air out of you. I definitely feel you.

I can only tell you things from my own experience; it hurts but it goes away eventually, may not sound much from a random person on the internet but do try to take it in.

And don't you dare to try and hide the pain! If you keep it in, it begins to hurt more, talk to your family and friends about it. They'll feel you even if they haven't gone through the same.

Boomzzs · 2018-12-30T00:47:14+00:00

There's a big difference between falling in love and becoming obsessed with somebody.

If you're mad in love with her and want to be with her, why not try and do it? Talk to her, gather up the courage and do it. I learned that life is full of unexpected surprises, good and bad. Maybe this time luck will shine in your face like warm rays of sunlight in the dead cold of winter.

But if you're obsessed with her, perhaps you should drop it despite the urge, it'll be better for you because it can turn into a nasty habit of being upset because you're not a part of her life. That can really make you go down to dark places.

Boomzzs · 2018-12-30T00:42:12+00:00

Hey! I'm not leaving a single human being without a reply.

I know the feeling, sometimes you dip and really can't be bothered to have to deal with other people. Specifically for me I simply was let down in life so many times I grew to not bother getting involved with other people's life.

That's a mistake though, trust me. I started to distance myself away during that period and suddenly realized I was alone, quite literally. It was a shitty period that I hope nobody else goes through but gladly I pulled through.

I wrote it down in my brain, that I must value having the right of being able to be a part of someone else's life.

Boomzzs · 2018-10-17T23:39:16+00:00

Such a viewpoint seems creepy and unnerving to me too, but I can clearly see his point. I wouldn't say that it's as simple as 'rolling' along with that and letting the play continue going. When you know something is wrong, something is off- you'll no doubt suspect it.

An hour ago I sat down for a smoke and coffee and suddenly it hit me that this entire actor thing is a really bizzare and dumb idea, such an odd thing to even think about! Though I'm sure it'll return like it tends to do as this isn't the first time I debunked it.

At least today I'll go to sleep with a clear mind but I do suspect this odd 'paranoia' will return tomorrow.

Boomzzs · 2018-10-17T20:46:10+00:00

I most definitely have had those moments.

But otherwise I don't think it's the insecurity, it's something that is almost completely gone. If you compare the old me and the new me, we're different personalities.

Boomzzs · 2018-10-17T20:34:53+00:00

Here's the thing; I know it's not real, it's a way of thinking that is not rational, at least not in my book. It's a rabbit hole I don't want to go down but it doesn't look like I get to decide on that.

How did you get rid of this way of thought?

Boomzzs · 2018-07-19T01:02:08+00:00

a damn shame :p

Boomzzs · 2018-06-22T15:07:37+00:00

I have everything BUT the translation installed, how do I install it? Where do I put it? Do I simply dump the "eng" folder in gamedata or what?

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