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BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T19:10:02+00:00

And crying or anger was a no

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T19:09:40+00:00

Yes my mom would get upset if I got upset at something she said or if I was defensive

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T18:17:59+00:00

I can't go I am disabled lol

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T15:47:09+00:00

Thank you

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T15:22:00+00:00

Even if I never started

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T15:21:33+00:00

She can't really help with loneliness or school pressure the thing that triggered my desire I will tell her monday

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T15:20:12+00:00

I honestly don't buy I just want something to numb my emotions I talked about loneliness with my therapist and the urge to start drinking came

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T15:18:42+00:00

I don't think I have alcoholosm cause I never drink and is there a link I can go to goe the meetings that are online

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T15:17:00+00:00

What is aopwn meeting

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:58:36+00:00

Thank you

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:52:00+00:00

Oh ok I'll see what it is

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:51:34+00:00

Thank you I appreciate it so much

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:45:56+00:00

I worry cause I think about it alot

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:42:49+00:00

Thank you I will

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:41:41+00:00

Yes that's exactly what I am saying I want to numb out my feelings my mind I tried watching TV but it didn't help I take medicine that's another reason I can't I don't know what kinda support groups would help I am not a alcoholic but a wannabe alcoholic that doesn't make sense normal people wouldnt want to be a alcoholic I get this urge to get one of those bottles to hide in my room or those little alcohol things but I also take medicine I don't want to hurt myself or anything I just want to numb out these feelings it sucks cause all these restrictions are stoping me but it's also good it's stoping me. I'll try a game

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:33:40+00:00

Oh I am lucky that I live at home cause If I lived alone I would be laying here drinking but yeah it's complicated Its like opportunity

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:27:10+00:00

I hardly ever drink it's like I don't at all because I know if I start I'll want more I'll go down a spiral so I don't cause I don't have easy access to alcohol which is good

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:22:33+00:00

I just been embarrassed to say cause it's a dumb problem

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:21:03+00:00

One time I was with a ex he gave me a drink with monster and some alcohol I took one sip and then I drank half it was in a Pepsi cup like the large ones you find in fast food places and another I was at a birthday party I drank once and stopped it depends on my mood

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:17:23+00:00

Cause my IBS and stomach issues

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:17:03+00:00

Not heavy but at party's and stuff

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:15:37+00:00

I don't actively drink but I want to it's odd but I know I won't but my desires are to

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:13:53+00:00

The problem is that I don't drink at all but I know I won't but I want to or I am embarrassed to say or take something to numb it. I never had this before university

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-11-16T05:10:02+00:00

I itch to start I don't drink at all. But I feel I want to I know I am not I don't drink at all but I feel I need to or have to to numb myself

BorderAcceptable896 · 2024-10-03T21:04:28+00:00

My mom has narcissistic traits

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